Category: Negan season 9

thewalkingdead-imagines:

Imagine for the finale of season 9

Summary: While the blizzard causes havoc Alexandria, Negan and the Reader have to face enormous challenges in the iciness of the raging storm that stretches them to their limit

the last part /all other previous parts
(You don’t have to read any previous parts to understand the plot! Hope you all like it and enjoy reading)

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Harsh wind was hitting the house, jerking the wooden panels that were covering it as the snow storm outside was beginning to fully enclose it in its icy depths. 
A few months had passed since the bloody massacre at the fair, allowing the deepest winter to fully set in and invoke a blizzard that forceful that it had demanded its consequences for every community.
By now it had forced half of Alexandria’s residents to split up to houses with large fireplaces that could warm each and every one of them, while the other half including Michonne was out there, helping the Kingdom’s citizen to move to the Hilltop after the winter had given its community the rest.
And while the storm was raging outside, you found yourself huddled up in the meeting room, along with Negan who was chained with one hand to a folding cot and had much to your relieve been finally allowed to tag along with you and leave his prison that would have turned into an icy death cell for him.
Cuddled into his side you watched the others pulling blankets over their freezing bodies as they shifted over their chairs or stumbled closer towards the flickering flames in the large fireplace, yearning to get a little of its heat.
“C’mere, still got this fucker here”, you heard Negan’s low voice mumble as he felt you shivering as well, dragging the blanket that had rested folded on the bed over to you and spread it over your legs before pulling you closer against his side again.
“Thank you”, you mumbled, reaching out to the blanket’s edge to pull it over his legs as well, before he stopped you quickly as he enclosed your hand in his and guided it back to your legs.
“Nope, all for you”, he mumbled as you shot him a questioning glance, “I’m all fine and warm, and with that little change of scene I can only feel fuckin’ great.”
He chuckled softly, the spark of excitement still stuck in his eyes as he wrapped his arm a little tighter around your waist to keep you in his warmth.
For a moment, you sunk some more against him, allowing to let your glance sway around the room once more, capturing Rosita, Siddiq and Gabriel by the fireplace that had watched the scene between the both of you closely, with a look on Rosita’s face as if she was seeing a mirage.

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“Well, the last time we were here together, Rick had just slit my throat open…so hell, this ain’t nothin’”

Negan | 8×16 & 9×16

thewalkingdead-imagines:

Imagine for the 14th episode of season 9

Summary: When Daryl comes along with the others to Alexandria and the Reader gets for the first time since he knows of her relationship to Negan a fair chance to talk to him, the day seems like it’s going to be one of the best in a long time, until Judith disappears…

the last part /all other previous parts
(You don’t have to read any previous parts to understand the plot! Hope you all like it and enjoy reading)

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Low rumbles shook through Negan’s chest as you cuddled closer into his warmth, feeling his bare skin pressing against yours as the first sunray’s shone through the cell’s windows and fell onto the sheets covering your bodies.
You were still swinging somewhere between being asleep and waking up as you nuzzled your nose into his neck and ran your hand over his chest to let your fingertips toy sleepily with the small dark curls that peppered it.
“Mornin’, Baby”, Negan mumbled, his voice drowsy and rougher than usual as he leaned in and pressed a kiss to your forehead.
“Morning”, you mumbled back, sighing sleepily out as you closed your eyes for a moment more and relished in the feeling of his arms wrapping tighter around you before you shifted your face away from the warmth of his neck, enough to glance with a drowsy smile at him.
“Slept well?”, he grumbled with a small grin, his eyes were just as sleepy as yours, still you could see how the bright rays of light were enlightening the green of his hazel irises as they darted at you.
“Yeah…you turned that day really into a good one with that night…besides everything with Michonne”, you mumbled, feeling how the happiness was slipping into your voice as you reached your hand up to let your fingertips caress through his salt and pepper stubble, watching as the ring that now stuck to your finger twinkled in the sun.
“Mhmm…not only me, also that fucker down there”, he grumbled with a low chuckle, snapping his hips a little up while he gave your waist a teasing squeeze.
“Yeah, for sure”, you chuckled with a soft snort back as you leaned into the warmth of his bare body until you sunk into him and let your lips caress slowly over his.
Humming you let your lips part, nuzzling your nose into his stubbly cheek as you felt him picking your hand up, pressing a quick kiss to its back before glancing at his gift.
“Y’know, If you’re ever on a run again or so and find some kinda ring that would fit me, ya gotta bring it back here”, he mumbled against your skin before moving your hand a little away, enough to glance at it as he linked his fingers with yours, “Wanna have one too…just to make it all complete”
“I’ll find you one”, you mumbled with a big smile on your lips, letting your head sink back on his shoulder as he nodded slowly.
“Hmm…at the latest when the damn day has come when I get outta-”, he suddenly stopped, grumbling confused as he turned his head towards the pillows.
“You hear that?”, he asked, his voice still drowsy as he shifted a little into the pillows. You furrowed your brows for a moment, unsure what he was talking about before you heard it too.
Voices, a whole bunch of voices chatting enthusiastically and which mixed with sounds of squeaking wooden wheels and the neighing of horses. It was way too early for so much to be going on in Alexandria on a normal day, so something must have happened, something must have changed.
“Yeah…weird”, you grumbled sleepily, yawning a little as Negan hummed in response. “Hmm…gonna go if I can see something…as long as I still can”, he mumbled with a dry chuckle as he nodded to the windows and shifted a little over the sheets. Moving out of his arms you allowed him to slip out of the bed and quickly pull his boxers and a shirt over his body before tapping towards the windows to glance outside.
“Well look at that”, Negan mumbled, curiosity sparking through his voice as he stepped a little closer, watching and listening closely as you shuffled up the pillows and pulled the blankets a little more over your bare body.
“What do you see?”, you asked, furrowing your brows as you tried to catch some voices that echoed inside.
“Whole mass of people, and they’re packing a bunch of shit on horses and some of the carriages…isn’t the fair someday now?”, he asked, rising the curiosity in you as well as he turned for a moment around and glanced at you.
“Yeah, but Michonne told them off”, you mumbled confusedly, grabbing your nightdress from below the bed to pull it over your body and shuffle out of the bed, leaving the warmth behind as your feet his the cool cement floor.
Yawning softly you walked towards Negan, feeling him pulling you to his side as you heard the voices clearer now as well and could catch and see a bit of what was going on outside.
“You think she changed her mind?”, Negan asked, caressing his hand over your side as you shrugged your shoulders and huffed softly.
“After yesterday…I wouldn’t say so…but maybe Gabriel or Aaron talked to her again…but I guess I’ll find out as soon as I’m outside”, you mumbled, sinking a little more against him as you felt the cold creeping up your legs, spreading more goosebumps over your skin as a soft groan left your lips, “Shit…it’s really beginning to get colder.”
“Hmm, don’t ya have the later shift today?”, Negan asked as he leaned his head against yours, pressing his lips to your forehead as a grin grew on them, “How about I warm us a little up?”
A low chuckle was leaving his lips as he wrapped his arms tighter around your body, “And before you say anything, everybody’s out there’s focused on their fucking self, gettin’ ready for moving out and no damn guards coming here for some time either damn way…so we two can start the day the right fucking way”, he mumbled against your skin before he chuckled, “Literally.”
“Hmm…I’m still a little sore from last night”, you grumbled into his shirt, laughing softly  before you felt him squeezing your waist playfully.
“Mhmm…poor thing”, he teased, scratching his beard stubble slightly against your forehead as he pressed another kiss to your skin, “Gonna take good fuckin’ care of that, you know that.”
“Yeah, I do”, you chuckled back, wrapping your arms around his torso to hug him back and nuzzle your nose into his warmth while a thick laugh rumbled through his chest.
“Well, then lets get to it!”

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Imagine for the 14th episode of season 9

Summary: When Daryl comes along with the others to Alexandria and the Reader gets for the first time since he knows of her relationship to Negan a fair chance to talk to him, the day seems like it’s going to be one of the best in a long time, until Judith disappears…

the last part /all other previous parts
(You don’t have to read any previous parts to understand the plot! Hope you all like it and enjoy reading)

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Low rumbles shook through Negan’s chest as you cuddled closer into his warmth, feeling his bare skin pressing against yours as the first sunray’s shone through the cell’s windows and fell onto the sheets covering your bodies.
You were still swinging somewhere between being asleep and waking up as you nuzzled your nose into his neck and ran your hand over his chest to let your fingertips toy sleepily with the small dark curls that peppered it.
“Mornin’, Baby”, Negan mumbled, his voice drowsy and rougher than usual as he leaned in and pressed a kiss to your forehead.
“Morning”, you mumbled back, sighing sleepily out as you closed your eyes for a moment more and relished in the feeling of his arms wrapping tighter around you before you shifted your face away from the warmth of his neck, enough to glance with a drowsy smile at him.
“Slept well?”, he grumbled with a small grin, his eyes were just as sleepy as yours, still you could see how the bright rays of light were enlightening the green of his hazel irises as they darted at you.
“Yeah…you turned that day really into a good one with that night…besides everything with Michonne”, you mumbled, feeling how the happiness was slipping into your voice as you reached your hand up to let your fingertips caress through his salt and pepper stubble, watching as the ring that now stuck to your finger twinkled in the sun.
“Mhmm…not only me, also that fucker down there”, he grumbled with a low chuckle, snapping his hips a little up while he gave your waist a teasing squeeze.
“Yeah, for sure”, you chuckled with a soft snort back as you leaned into the warmth of his bare body until you sunk into him and let your lips caress slowly over his.
Humming you let your lips part, nuzzling your nose into his stubbly cheek as you felt him picking your hand up, pressing a quick kiss to its back before glancing at his gift.
“Y’know, If you’re ever on a run again or so and find some kinda ring that would fit me, ya gotta bring it back here”, he mumbled against your skin before moving your hand a little away, enough to glance at it as he linked his fingers with yours, “Wanna have one too…just to make it all complete”
“I’ll find you one”, you mumbled with a big smile on your lips, letting your head sink back on his shoulder as he nodded slowly.
“Hmm…at the latest when the damn day has come when I get outta-”, he suddenly stopped, grumbling confused as he turned his head towards the pillows.
“You hear that?”, he asked, his voice still drowsy as he shifted a little into the pillows. You furrowed your brows for a moment, unsure what he was talking about before you heard it too.
Voices, a whole bunch of voices chatting enthusiastically and which mixed with sounds of squeaking wooden wheels and the neighing of horses. It was way too early for so much to be going on in Alexandria on a normal day, so something must have happened, something must have changed.
“Yeah…weird”, you grumbled sleepily, yawning a little as Negan hummed in response. “Hmm…gonna go if I can see something…as long as I still can”, he mumbled with a dry chuckle as he nodded to the windows and shifted a little over the sheets. Moving out of his arms you allowed him to slip out of the bed and quickly pull his boxers and a shirt over his body before tapping towards the windows to glance outside.
“Well look at that”, Negan mumbled, curiosity sparking through his voice as he stepped a little closer, watching and listening closely as you shuffled up the pillows and pulled the blankets a little more over your bare body.
“What do you see?”, you asked, furrowing your brows as you tried to catch some voices that echoed inside.
“Whole mass of people, and they’re packing a bunch of shit on horses and some of the carriages…isn’t the fair someday now?”, he asked, rising the curiosity in you as well as he turned for a moment around and glanced at you.
“Yeah, but Michonne told them off”, you mumbled confusedly, grabbing your nightdress from below the bed to pull it over your body and shuffle out of the bed, leaving the warmth behind as your feet his the cool cement floor.
Yawning softly you walked towards Negan, feeling him pulling you to his side as you heard the voices clearer now as well and could catch and see a bit of what was going on outside.
“You think she changed her mind?”, Negan asked, caressing his hand over your side as you shrugged your shoulders and huffed softly.
“After yesterday…I wouldn’t say so…but maybe Gabriel or Aaron talked to her again…but I guess I’ll find out as soon as I’m outside”, you mumbled, sinking a little more against him as you felt the cold creeping up your legs, spreading more goosebumps over your skin as a soft groan left your lips, “Shit…it’s really beginning to get colder.”
“Hmm, don’t ya have the later shift today?”, Negan asked as he leaned his head against yours, pressing his lips to your forehead as a grin grew on them, “How about I warm us a little up?”
A low chuckle was leaving his lips as he wrapped his arms tighter around your body, “And before you say anything, everybody’s out there’s focused on their fucking self, gettin’ ready for moving out and no damn guards coming here for some time either damn way…so we two can start the day the right fucking way”, he mumbled against your skin before he chuckled, “Literally.”
“Hmm…I’m still a little sore from last night”, you grumbled into his shirt, laughing softly  before you felt him squeezing your waist playfully.
“Mhmm…poor thing”, he teased, scratching his beard stubble slightly against your forehead as he pressed another kiss to your skin, “Gonna take good fuckin’ care of that, you know that.”
“Yeah, I do”, you chuckled back, wrapping your arms around his torso to hug him back and nuzzle your nose into his warmth while a thick laugh rumbled through his chest.
“Well, then lets get to it!”

Negan’s lips caressed over yours, taking you in as he hovered above you and pulled the sheets over your bodies until his arms could cage you in his embrace again.
Humming into the kiss you ran your hands up his body, tugging on the shirt he had only earlier pulled over, longing to fell his skin smoothing against yours. “Possible that last night got you even greedier?”, Negan grumbled lowly against your lips as he broke the kiss off for a moment, tease swinging through his voice as he nodded to your hastily fumbling hands and the ring that was adorning it.
“Mhmm…maybe”,you mumbled as you glanced from his gift up into his hazel eyes again and pressed another kiss to his lips with a soft grin ,”You complaining?”
“Oh fuck no”, he grumbled, sinking into another deep kiss before he pulled his shirt over his head, tossing it beside the bed before he chuckled against your lips and nodded towards you, “Now we gotta get you outta that dress.”

Soon enough the both of you were entangled in one another, slowly becoming undone as you could feel his bare skin brushing against yours, his arms wrapping tightly around your figure as his lips captured yours in deep kisses.
You could hear his still drowsy voice huskily moaning your name into your ear as his body moved in intoxicating rhythm with your own, pushing you with each little moment closer to your high until you were an in pleasure writhing mess beneath him.
It really was the perfect way to start into the day, getting lost in each other until you huddled still heavily breathing up to one another, widely smiling as you cuddled into his side and toyed with the small dark curls that peppered his chest, nuzzling your face into the warmth of his neck before you could dive into a pleasant trance until you ultimately had to leave the cell and Negan behind.

As soon as you stepped out of the house a cold breeze brushed over your skin and spread goosebumps over your whole body, announcing the soon coming colder times of the year. Alexandria was calmer by now, even calmer than usual after most of the people who were about to participate in the fair had already made themselves on this way hours ago.
Still, you took in the warm sunrays that were brushing over your skin, fighting the coolness of the wind as you made your way down Alexandria’s streets.
”(Y/N), can we talk for a second?”, you suddenly heard Michonne’s voice behind you, sending a shiver down your spine as your mind brought up your fight of the last day in the matter of seconds, combining with the uncertainty of what she might throw against your head now.
Still, you stopped and turned around, watching as she walked up the street, a calmer expression on her face as you had expected.
”I wanted to talk to you about yesterday”, she said, sighing slightly as she closed the last couple meters between the both of you, “I did go too far…talked to Aaron and Gabriel, the others are going to the fair now and…if you still want, you’re back in the council.”
You glanced at her for a moment, just as surprised about her reaction now as you had been about seeing the others getting ready to take off for the fair in the early morning hours.
“And if it matters for your decision…”,she mumbled as you didn’t directly respond, gulping thickly as if what would come next wouldn’t roll off her tongue easily ,”I will give the closing of Negan’s windows another thought.”
You kept staring at her for another second, even more astounded by what she had just said and by the genuine expression that laid over her face.
You could only imagine that Gabriel, as head of the council, had put a little more pressure onto Michonne, perhaps Aaron as well, to shake her out of her headiness, but no matter who or what it had been, you surely weren’t complaining about it.
“Okay, then I’m back on”, you said, giving her a small nod before you got torn from your conversation as Aaron’s voice echoed through the air, calling for Michonne.
“What’s the matter?”, she asked the moment you turned around to Aaron and watched him rushing towards the both of you.
“Daryl’s at the gates, got some people with him”, he said, sending a shiver down your back the moment you heard your half-brother’s name and watched Michonne giving you a small nod before following Aaron to Alexandria’s entrance.
You hadn’t seen him in a long time, you couldn’t even pinpoint when exactly, but the last time you had seen him close enough to actually hear his voice must lay over a half year back.
He was swinging between the communities, mostly spending his time outside with the dog he had found, still looking for Rick’s body after all these years even though you knew that since the walker-face wearing group came along, he was mostly at the Hilltop.
Watching Michonne and Aaron disappearing behind some houses you tore yourself out of your trance, realizing that you had to get yourself to your shift you made your way further down the street, unsure of what to expect of the rest of the day.

Not more than about twenty minutes later you were at the infirmary, sorting sorting some pills back into their drawers of the shelfs in the edge of the main room as you heard the tipsing sound of dog feet echoing over the wooden floor.
Glancing up you saw Daryl’s dog rushing through the door, straight towards you, waggling its tail happily as it approved you.
“Hey, you remember me, huh?”, you softly chuckled, crouching down to the dog who was leaning against your legs, giving in to the pats before you glanced up and saw four figures walking towards the entrance the dog had just stormed through, accompanied by Michonne.
It was Daryl, of course, Connie, Henry and a girl around his age you hadn’t seen before. She was looking nervously around even though she seemed to try to hide it, her brown long hair was hanging slightly into her face while he fumbled on her hands as they stepped finally into the room.
“Dog, c’mere”, you heard Daryl call out, swinging his hand up as the dog followed his order, although reluctantly as he forced himself away from your soothing pats. Still, you could feel goosebumps rushing once again over your skin, keeping you glued to the spot for a moment as his glance brushed over you.
“What’s the matter?”, you heard Miles ask the very moment you stood up again, watching him stepping back into the room with some bandages in his hand as he glanced the the visitors.
“Henry’s got a large cut wound on his leg, might need to get stitched…and Lydia might need to get checked too”, Michonne said, and with that something snapped in you. So that was the girl they had captured from the group that was the new threat, the daughter of their leader who was now a seemingly new member of the communities.
For a moment, you could catch Michonne’s wary glance towards her, as if she was asking herself if letting her inside had really been the right call. But still, she didn’t say any more, instead she walked with Daryl and Connie back outside, slow enough for you to catch the other glance Daryl was giving you before he disappeared outside.

“Well, then we should get started”, Miles said in the next moment, letting a friendly smile spread over his lips as he motioned for Henry and Lydia to sit down on one of the cots.
It took a little before Henry had dragged himself over to it, even though Lydia helped him until he could let himself fall onto the rough fabric and Miles could along with you begin to treat his wound.
It was one nasty cut he had there, an even nastier story that came along with it. You could see Lydia tense up as Henry shortly told you how one of the whisperers had inflicted the wound, trying to kill him and the rest in order to get the girl back to the group. It was hard to imagine her with them, the rather nervous seeing girl who hugged Henry any time he flinched as Miles started to stitch up the long cut.
Sure, you couldn’t judge people by looking at them, could most certainly not trust them but still,  you actually pitied her more than the potential danger others saw in her, especially after hearing before from the others what kind of abuse her mother had put her through all these years. No wonder she was the very way she was, even though for these conditions, there seemed to be more good in her left than it would have been in many others.
“Alright Henry, you’re done”, Miles said, placing the needle and the threat into a small bowl on the cot, along with the disinfection liquid you had earlier used as Henry slowly nodded as a wave of relief seemed to wash over him.
“Michonne said you needed a check up as well, are you hurt too?”, you asked Lydia, catching her glance in the very same moment before she slowly, almost shyly shook her head only to quickly be disrupted in it by Henry.
“She has a wound on her ear”, he said before she could hold him back, glancing reluctantly at you before she stroke her hair back and revealed a wound, small but still enough to give her pain she didn’t need to go through.
It didn’t take much more than a little bit salve for now and a small bit of it Miles packed up for her for the next days, and with that, Lydia left the infirmary again, propping the lightly limping Henry until they both sat down on the stairs outside the infirmary, waiting for what was to come next for them.

Until your break everything stayed relatively calm at the infirmary, oppositely to the rest of Alexandria who seemed a little whirled up by the visitors. Somehow everyone tried to get a little glance or at least tried to get to know what exactly was going on, and you got only confirmed by it as you settled down into one of the rocking chairs on the porch.
Biting into your sandwich you watched them passing by, some of them still getting ready to leave for the fair, others talking while your focus began to slowly shift towards someone else.
It was Daryl, sitting by the small lake with his dog, tossing some stones into the water and watching the waves spreading over its surface while each second you glanced longer at him, the stirring in your stomach got a little stronger.
”Hope my Mom lets them stay a little longer”, you suddenly heard Judith’s voice, ripping your glance from Daryl towards her as she climbed up the porch’s stairs, biting into the apple in her hand as she let herself fall into the rocking chair beside you.
”Couldn’t talk to Daryl yet…have you?”, Judith mumbled, letting you only with a couple words know in which direction this conversation was gonna go. She missed him, you knew it, and just as much did you know that she couldn’t understand any conflict that lingered between you all. Between her Mom and Carol or Maggie, between the communities and also between you and Daryl.
”Not really…only indirectly when they got Henry into the infirmary”, you said, knowing that telling her a lie, even if it would be only a small one wouldn’t work on her.
She hummed softly, nodding as she bit into her apple before she furrowed her brows a little and shifted up in her chair.
“Why aren’t you talking to each other anymore?”, Judith finally asked, glancing to Daryl and his dog by the lake’s side.
“It’s complicated”, you said, gulping thickly as you tore your glance from him trying to figure out how to put it in the right words for her.
“I know…it’s Negan, right?”, she asked, the tone in her voice giving away that she knew the truth already, at least part of it from the times she had sat down by the stairs in front of the jail.
“He’s told you about it, huh?”, you asked with a soft smile, glancing down at her as you saw her slowly nodding, fumbling on the edge of the shirt before her eyes met yours again.
”Yeah…I know he’s mad because you love Negan…I know what Negan has done too….”, she gulped, as if she was trying to find a way to go on before she let out a little sigh ,”But he’s changed…so why aren’t you still talking?”
A small shudder of pain ran over your back, evoking memories you had tried to suppress before you glanced at Daryl for another moment and took a deep breath.
“Judith, I’d be happy if things between me and uncle Daryl would be okay again”, you mumbled, forcing yourself to not let the soft smile turn into a sad one in front of her as you went on ,”I’ve tried to make some steps towards him, but it always just made things worse. I’d do so much for it but I can’t force him…if he doesn’t want to talk to me, I have to accept that.”
Watching her, you could already tell that this wasn’t enough for her, so you stayed silent for a moment, sorting yourself before raising your voice again.
“No matter how hard that is”, you mumbled, feeling how sadness took over your face ultimately even though you kept fighting it ,”I can only hope that he changes his mind someday and maybe sees that things are different now…and gives us another chance.”
Slowly, she nodded, without retorting anything but rather as if half of her understood what you were saying and feeling, while the other was already planning her next move, as if she was figuring out how to soothe the tension between Daryl and you.
”I’m sure he will”, she mumbled, after a couple quiet moments, giving you a small uplifting smile while the twinkle in her eyes only strengthened your theory.
And it got confirmed only a little later as you watched Judith and Daryl through the infirmary’s window sitting by the water, talking.
Of course, you couldn’t be sure that you were a topic, there were many things Judith wanted to talk to Daryl about, especially after such a long time of not seeing him and with the pressure in the back of her head that he might have to leave soon again, still, you felt like your name would fall at least once.

The sun was already melting into the skyline the trees formed behind Alexandria’s walls as you glanced again out of the window, after forcing yourself from it hours ago, telling yourself that a glimpse at your half brother and Judith couldn’t chance the situation after all.
But now, the scenery was different, the spot by the lake empty and instead you saw the Daryl, Connie, Henry and Lydia standing outside, along with Miles who was checking Henry’s wound once more and Michonne, who watched the four as they were fumbling on their backpacks. Judith was there too, but instead of talking to Daryl she was running off into the direction of her home, a stern but mostly disappointed look on her face before she disappeared behind a couple houses and whirled more questions up in your head, even though you had your fair share of guesses of what was happening.
”Finishing for today, see ya tomorrow”, you could hear Karen behind you say, pushing your glance towards your co worker as she slipped her jacket over her body and grabbed her bag.
”Yeah, gonna finish in two hours too…do you know what exactly’s going on outside?”, you asked, leaning against the counter as Karen slowly nodded as she stroke a blonde strand of hair out of her face.
”They’re already leaving. Michonne thought it would be better if they would go back on the road again…to the kingdom for the fair”, she mumbled, shrugging her shoulders as she walked towards the front door.
”Alright, till tomorrow”, she said, giving you a nod before she scurried out of the infirmary, only for her to pass by two figures that walked towards the door and caught your attention quicker than you liked, spreading some suspense over you that you already knew all too well.
“You should have told me right away when we took care of Henry’s cut, then you wouldn’t have to stop now to get this checked up”, Miles said with a huff that got only responded by Daryl with a grumble before they stumbled through the door and rose the tension that spread over your body.
“Nah, she’s gettin’ ready to leave”, Daryl grumbled the moment he saw you, obviously tryin to grasp the teeniest thing just to not cross paths again with you.
Shaking your head you glanced at him, pushing yourself from the counter’s side as you straightened your posture, trying to shake of the suspense.
“No, still got some time before the shift ends…either way, couple more minutes won’t hurt”, you said, trying to give the both men a small smile before Daryl’s darkened glance hit you again.
“Ya sure? Bet he’s waiting’ for ya”, he almost spat out the last sentence, glancing at you through the strands of hair that hung into his face, as if he was closely waiting for your reaction.
“He is, but he’d be the last to not understand”, you responded, a little of the sharpness you had just heard in his voice taking over yours as Daryl let out a small huff.
”Alright, leave you alone now. See you tomorrow”, Miles said, nodding towards you after awkwardly standing in between the tension that was radiation between you and Daryl.
”See you”, you mumbled, feeling how the suspense rose again the moment the door fell into its lock and you were for the first time in years alone with Daryl in one room again.
”So uh, what’s the matter?”, you asked, trying to sound as casual as possible, even though you could tell by Daryl’s glance that he wasn’t buying it, still he didn’t snap but rose his voice rather calmly after huffing deeply, as if he had to swallow a remark down.
”Got a wound on the arm from that fight with the asshole from Lydia’s group, got some bandage ‘round, isn’t too bad”, he grumbled, pulling the sleeve of his shirt a little up to reveal the already dirty bandage, “Don’ have to do it’, took care of it befor’ too.”
”But here you got the resources to get something more than a dirty bandage, can’t be wrong to get it checked, huh?”, you asked, slowly feeling how you calmed a little down, caused by the lack of new remarks and by the tiny bit of hope that this could be finally a halfway normal conversation between the two of you after all this time. Hell, even talking as much as you had by now seemed like a new record.
”Hmm”, Daryl only grumbled but still nodded, lifting more of the suspense off of you as you tried to push a small smile on your lips as you nodded towards the cot in the room’s middle, “Well, then lets get started.”

“Okay, there we go”, you mumbled only a few moments later as you softly dabbed the in disinfection liquid soaked cloth onto his wound, cleaning it as you eyed it, trying to find out how to treat it best.
“Don’t think you need much, some salve and a couple tight bandaids to keep it closed will be fine”, you mumbled after a couple more moments, pulling his sleeve a bit more up to get the rest of the wound cleaned up before it revealed something that brought you back into the past.
It was small, even tiny, and if you wouldn’t know the story behind it you probably wouldn’t have ever noticed. It was a small, blue spot beneath his skin, shaped almost like a star, a rather involuntary tattoo he had accidentally given himself years before the world had gone south.
Oddly, only its sight was needed to awake a bunch of memories in you, taking you to the day it had happened, a sunny spring day, the first real one after the winter had beat retreat. Almost like a fresh beginning. At least that was what it had felt like. Merle had been off and about again, playing his usual games with the law and any drugs he could get his hands on, leaving Daryl behind and finally willing to give into your Mom’s pleas to let her take care of him. He’d been reluctant, as he’d always been but in this spring your half brother that had rather taken a role in your life you hadn’t been sure how to define, had actually stayed at your house and sooner than later warmed up.
You’d been too young to understand everything that was going on with Daryl, nor his life that seemed to be so different to yours, but maybe this childlike and blithe attitude had softened him up. At least it had been enough to let your younger sister and you draw with him, even on him later on as the bare paper sheets had gotten too boring, leaving him with a couple flowers dragged over his arm. You could remember him laugh, truly laugh so that even after the laughter had hushed a smile stayed stuck on his lips that stayed there until he took you with him to the woods, trying to teach you how to track.
He’d cut himself on some thorns of a bush as he’d tried to show you the imprint of some paws on the ground, not deep, but still enough to let some of the blue ink of one of the flowers you had drawn earlier on him sink into his skin, and heal to end up to be the small tattoo that was still lingering on his arm.
Right in these moments, you could feel a small smile growing on your lips, letting you sink into nostalgia as you thought about the day that had been the beginning of the close relationship you’ve once had with him.
“What?”, you heard him suddenly ask, ripping you out of your memories right back into reality and snapping your glance from the small tattoo up at him, at his eyes that stared through the hair strands right at you.
“Just…just remembered something”, you mumbled, gulping softly as you watched him glancing down to his arm, catching in the matter of seconds what had elicited your reaction.
“Told me you liked it better than any of the other tattoos”, he grumbled, and for a moment you were stunned by the tone in his voice that almost seemed soft, by the tiny bit the corners of his lips curled, almost too small to notice, but still it was there. And it wasn’t only this, moreover it surprised you enough that he actually responded, and not something snapping, not in your or Negan’s direction, but just something normal that seemed after all these years almost abnormal to you.
“Yeah, I did”, you mumbled, chuckling softly as a fuzzy feeling spread out within you, pushing the hope that was lingering in you, no matter how much you had tamed it over all this time ,”Still think so by the way.”
You could hear the tease in your tone, like it had been so often in the old times even though an inner voice was warning you already to not put too much hope into these small signs even though it felt so much after more than seven years.
“Guessed so”, Daryl grumbled back as you dabbed the cloth once more to his skin, cleaning the last bit of his wound while you could feel how the smile was still sticking to your lips.
For another moment, it got silent, right before you could see his eyes wandering from the bluish spot to the ring on your finger, tensing him back up in the matter of seconds, as if he got pushed out of the unusual peacefulness between the both of you and right back into the harsh reality. You could see his face muscles harden, falling back into the scheme you had seen so often and pushing your hopes back to where they had rested for all this time.
“Ain’t never gonna be the same again”, he grumbled, a growling undertone in his voice as a sting of pain shot through the hope that had formed nonetheless within you.
Gulping thickly and trying to cope with the harsh side you had seen way too often of him since the war you nodded slowly and breathed heavily out.
“I know”, you said, unable to suppress the sadness completely out of your voice as you tried to concentrate on your work and keep at least the little bit of warmth the first part of the conversation had elicited within you alive.

It was already becoming dark as you were done with his wound and had it fully patched up, leaving him to grab his stuff as you glanced over the bandaids and the salve on the cot you had used before on him. Of which the later pushed you to break the silence between you.
“You should take that salve with you”, you said, trying to use a last chance before he went off and wouldn’t show up again for god knows how long.
“Also good for the others…Miles already gave Lydia a little but it won’t be enough for all of you”, you added before he could retort anything and deny it but instead he swung his backpack over his shoulder and first eyed you before nodding towards the tube in your hand.
“Why?”, he grumbled, his eyes scamming over your face as if he was trying to read your thoughts and as the words you were about to say, the risk you were surely taking with it if you would receive a backlash, was running through your head you could feel the tension building one last time up.
“Because I care about you”, you said, giving him a tiny smile before you sighed softly ,”No matter what you might think.”
For a moment, you weren’t sure what to expect, if he’d snap at you like he had done it before or if he’d just leave without anything, but instead he just glanced at you for another moment.
”Ya don’t need it here?”
”No, we got enough of it and you need it more…I want you to have it”, you said, keeping the tiny smile on your lips as you finally saw him nodding slowly as he reached towards you and grasped the salve.
”Alright”, he grumbled, nodding once again slightly before he gulped thickly, “Thanks.”
”No problem”, you said back, watching as he stuffed the salve into his pant’s pocket before he glanced at you once more as you shifted a little from foot to foot, still tense even though this whole thing had worked out way better than you had allowed yourself to wish for.
”Well, then…hope you get without any fuss to the fair”, you mumbled, a part of you still fearing that the something would turn this situation upside down and let it escalate again as you had experienced too often but this fear got soothed as he nodded again, grumbled a quiet “Hope so” and began to make his way towards the door before he abruptly stopped.
Turning around you could hear him huffing to himself before his gaze caught the ring on your finger once more before it went up to your eyes, making you unsure of what to expect next.
”He’s treatin’ you good?”, you heard him mumble in the next moment, his eyes switching from yours quickly to the ground as if he couldn’t really believe what he had just asked, and for a moment, you felt the very same way.
But then you felt a bit new warmth settling within you, caused by the question that seemed to be the closest to versant you’ve heard ever since he knew of Negan and you, no matter how small it had to seem to an outsider.
”Yes…yeah, he really is”, you mumbled after a moment of surprise, giving him another small smile before you only saw him nodding slowly as his glance wandered over you again, watching the genuine expression on your face before he turned around once for all and made his way out of the infirmary.

You were stuck with this bit of warmth until your shift ended and you finally made your way back to Negan’s cell, ready to tell him everything about the day in detail, but instead to the relaxed man you had left earlier today, you were finding one who was filled up with worry.
“Judith’s gone”, Negan scoffed the moment you found yourself back in his arms, all while his voice was thick with emotion and worry as stuck in his eyes as you stared confusedly at him.
“What?”
“Michonne was just a bit earlier here, trying to grill me out if I knew shit”, he scoffed, running a palm over his salt and pepper stubble before he thickly gulped ,”Think she’s searching for Daryl and the others…guess Michonne went after her already ‘bout an hour ago.”
“Shit, I-”, you mumbled, clearly hearing how the shock flowed into your voice even though a part of you wasn’t surprised at all, not after hearing what she had said today, not after knowing how much she missed the others and Daryl to be here and most certainly not as the picture of her disappointed face shot back into your memory as she had run back to her home.
“She’ll find her, know it and Judith’s one tough little badass”, he mumbled in the very next moment, sighing deeply as he eventually met your glance ,”I’m just…worried.”
Softly nodding you looked at him, stroking your hands over his chest up until they met his neck and you could caress your thumbs softly along its side, trying to soothe him a little.
“I know, but you’re right, she’ll find her and till then, Judith’s gonna be fine, I’ve been out there with her when you were missing…I’ve seen that she can take care of anything that’s out there”, you mumbled, giving him a small smile even though the worry was still settling further in his glance and the rest of his body ,”But I can go too if-”
“No, nope! Michonne’s out there for an hour…you won’t catch up that fast and I…can’t have that fear of some shit happening to you too”, he cut you quickly off, pulling you closer into his embrace as if he was trying to make sure you weren’t leaving him before you cuddled a little closer and glanced up at him.
“It’s all gonna be fine”, you said, dearly hoping for Michonne to soon come back with Judith through Alexandria’s gates as you gave him a small smile and saw him nodding slowly as he pulled you close enough to let you settle against his warm chest.
“Now that Daryl was here…did something happen? You saw him?”, Negan mumbled in the next moment, the worry still stuck in his voice as he leaned his head against yours and nuzzled his nose into your hair.
“Yeah I did…we even talked a little...calmly”, you said, feeling how small smile was growing on your lips as you leaned a little away to look at him, watching how he rose his eyebrows in surprise but let a smile sneak on his lips.  
”Yeah”, you confirmed it again with a soft chuckle and nodded softly.
“Shit, ya gotta tell me all about that wonder of the damn century”, Negan teased, trying to shake some more tension off his body as he wrapped his arms a little tighter around your waist.
“I will, let’s lay down, okay? Gonna tell you everything…and by then, maybe Michonne and Judith are already back.”

You both kept hoping for this the whole night that was much calmer than the last, ending with the both of you both curled up on the bed, talking about your conversation with Daryl and the other turns the day had taken before you slowly fell asleep in his arms.
And in the morning, right as the first sun rays enlightened Alexandria in a warm light, you could finally feel the suspense leaving both of your bodies as Judith came safely back to Alexandria along with Michonne and a decision they had made on the way back.
They were going to the fair after all, trying to catch up on Daryl and the others to make it on time. And with that they were faster gone again than you had thought after collecting some more supplies, saddling the horses and hitching them up to a provisory carriage.
And with that a little bit of the old Michonne seemed to come back as well.

The few days that followed Michonne and Judith’s departing to the fair were calm and without much fuss. Most of Alexandria was at the fair, the infirmary was finally as good as empty again and so some of your shifts got cut, leaving you more time than you’ve had in a good while to spend with Negan.
Some of it felt a bit like vacation, if you ignored the cell, of course. You could sleep in with him, wake slowly up and lay in his arms as long as you wanted, swaying in the comfy trance between diving out of sleep and waking fully up, relishing in his kisses and his touch until you had to leave for a short shift. It didn’t take long until you could come back, watch how the sun was going down, filling the room with warm colors while you cuddled up to him and talked about whatever had happened at the infirmary, coupled with the gossip he had caught up at the window and left both of you at times curled up in laughter. You could spend the nights without worry, huddled up beside him and still talking or writhing beneath him in pleasure until the whole circle repeated itself.
It was soothing after this time of flutter and stress, giving you both a little bit time to recuperate. Still, for a community in the world in which humans in walker skin lived among the dead it seemed at moments almost too calm, too peaceful, too unagitated.

And this feeling would soon get confirmed as the rest of Alexandria came back from the fair, not only with new supplies and livestock but with horrifying news that let your blood freeze the moment you heard of them.
“The Whisperers killed ten of us, lured them from the fair and-”, Gabriel gulped as he fumbled on his hands, staring at Siddiq, the lonely survivor of the attack as he got treated by Miles in the main room of the infirmary, “Beheaded them…stuck their heads to pikes to form a new border to their land…”
You listened to him, feeling an icy shudder running repeatedly down your back and watching as more blood seemed to drain from his face, leaving it sickly pale as he named the dead once more. You didn’t know all of them, some only a little bit, some with a rather negative afflicted relationship as it counted for Frankie, one part of the former harem, but as Gabriel named Henry, Enid and Tara your stomach sank a bit. You’ve had your problems with Tara over the years, especially right after the all out war but her death still shocked you for a moment, just like it did with Enid’s.
And as Henry’s name fell, your mind skipped right back to the day you had treated him, to how happy he seemed with Lydia and then straight Carol, who lost yet another child and had to go through another trauma, as if Sophia’s story got repeated in the worst way possible.
You weren’t sure how she could go on, she would, you knew it, still it must be the so hard that you couldn’t dare to imagine it. At least she still had Ezekiel to hold onto, at least they had each other and you knew how important that was, especially if that person was your rock.
Hell if you’d lose Negan, you were sure that would be it for you. You’ve had experienced only a tiny taste of it back when he had stood on the edge to losing the very last hope, had seen him bleeding from his self inflicted wounds and had seen him almost falling apart. All this had already brought a pain up within you that couldn’t just nearly be put into words, so brutal and painful that it made you feel like losing him would kill you too.
And so you held him even a little tighter in the night after hearing about the deaths that hit all of the communities hard and that brought them together to stand up against the new threat. Trying to blend out the painful memories and instead feel his warmth, hear the comforting deepness of his voice and dive into his intoxicating scent, realizing that he was there with you, alive, well and happy and that you would do anything it would take to protect this little idyllic world you had with him in this bloody mess.

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Summary: After Michonne’s headiness and plans for closing Negan’s cell windows provokes a frustrating fight between her and the reader, Negan steps in to cheer his girl up

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Voices echoed through the tall hall of the church, angry voices stuck in a thick discussion. You were part of it too, had been to be more exact until a few minutes ago, you were tired of it by now, frustrated even more. 
It was only a half day ago that Negan had returned to the cell, not more than an hour or two ago since Michonne and the others had returned from the Hilltop with devastating and chilling news.
Jesus was dead, killed by a new emerged threat, a group that was walking disguised as the dead within them, killing everything that was coming into their way. Michonne and the rest had managed to catch one of them on the day after, the daughter of their leader who was now caged up in the one of the Hilltop’s cells, waiting for what else was to come.
The Hilltop wasn’t the only community that was struggling, the Kingdom was too, but not with the living dead, but their supplies. Their fair should save them, bring them back into the game but as always, Michonne had disagreed to let Alexandria participate, not even after a second plea of Carol.
And this wasn’t everything that had prattled down on you just a little while ago, Rosita was fine again, but pregnant and not from Gabriel but Siddiq, after a short and unmeaningly affair before Rosita’s relationship with the priest had even begun. The whole mood in the council’s meeting room was already tense, but putting these two men in here didn’t add up to a better atmosphere.
The cherry on the top really was Michonne right now, her repeating lecture on safety concerns that was slowly but surely cutting Alexandria off of every other community, fueling your frustration.
It was the same damn thing every time, about every little thing.
No matter what the council decided, Michonne did in the very end what she wanted, almost as if the council only existed anymore to make it seem like she wasn’t the only source of power in Alexandria. It was nerve-recking, especially after you had fought for their trust and a place on the council for so long, a council that now didn’t seem to even exist anymore.
You had often discussed with her about this, just like the others, but today you were zooming out, trying to process the everything that was happening around you, including Negan’s return to the cell.
You’d been there when the door had fallen into the lock again, watching as he laid the new leather jacket next to the bed and slipped back into the prisoner’s clothes and you’d lie if you’d say your heart hadn’t been caught up in a row of stings. Negan seemed fine with it, more than you had ever thought, but you kept seeing him before your inner eye. In the woods, in freedom, with his arms wrapped around you and your head buried into the soft leather that gave you flashbacks to the time before the prison.
You wanted him here with you in Alexandria, but you wanted him to be a free walking men as well, and those two components didn’t fit well, at least not to everybody but you and him.
A thick sigh left your lips as you leaned yourself against one of the church’s benches while another row of voices echoed through the hall, strong enough to catch your attention this time. 
“What does is mean for Alexandria to survive if it means that the Kingdom falls?”, Siddiq asked, stepping closer towards Michonne, his eyes filled with disbelieve as nothing more than coldness pressed in over Michonne’s face.
“It means, Alexandria survives.”
And with these words she shot him any even icier glare, holding his glance for a couple more seconds before breaking it off and pushing herself past the table the others were surrounding. She was rushing as fast out as always after such discussions, leaving a tension in the room that you could almost cut with a knife.
“Great”, you heard Gabriel scoff, propping himself with his hands onto the table while he squeezed his eyes shut in frustration. 
“We should go back to work, we can’t do anything more for the moment”, you heard Laura say as you pushed yourself away from the bench’s backrest and glanced at Siddiq who was still standing right where Michonne had left him, before he forced himself out of his trance and nodded slowly.
“Yeah”, he grumbled, the annoyance clearly stuck in his voice before he let a sigh fall from his lips and glanced at you, “Lets get back to the infirmary, at least what we’re doing there is useful.”

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Summary: When Negan escapes from his cell to find a way to a better future with the reader, he provokes a storm in Alexandria that gets the one person in trouble he wants to protect the most.

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Sleep was still lulling you into its depths as a low voice began to stream through to you, slowly tickling the consciousness awake.
Softly groaning your tired mind tried to sort the voice into a category as it sounded through your head once more, pushing you enough to the edge of wakefulness to let your eyes flutter slowly open.
Your view was blurry at first, only taking in the brown hair and hazy features of the man in front of you before it got clearer with each passing second.
“Miles?”, you groaned drowsily, wrinkling your brows in confusion before your head bounced into reality and made you remember where you were.
In a bed of the infirmary, not by Negan’s side in the cell.
Working all day and night before laying down to take a nap while all the patients were sleeping –
Shit.
“Oh crap, the patients”, you called out, standing almost straight in your bed as you were suddenly wide awake, cursing yourself for oversleeping.
You had laid down when it had been completely dark outside, now the morning sun was shining brightly through the windows, urging you to realize that your exhaustion had urged your body to take more sleep than you had planned.
“Its fine, they’re all still sleeping, and if they wake up, Karen’s already ready to take care of them. We’re taking over now, came back earlier from the run than we thought”, your co worker said, giving you a small smile as your muscles began to tense a little less and the adrenaline that had rushed through your veins decreased, “I just decided to wake you up so you know we’re back.”
“Okay, thank you…sorry though, just couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore and they were all asleep”, you mumbled, adjusting your clothes as you heft yourself up from the bed and have him an apologizing smile.
“Don’t worry, can’t blame it on you, keeping that thing here going all alone is one hell of a job, no wonder you needed a break”, he chuckled before he nodded towards the half open door, “You mind getting Karen and me up to speed? Then you’re all free for now.”

“And Will’s wound is doing better, still needs the salve Siddiq mixed for him though.. but that must be it”, you said as you found yourself standing ten minutes later in the kitchen of the infirmary while both of them listened to you as you finished going through the list of patients that laid in the beds of the infirmary.
“Great, then we see you back tomorrow, right?”, Karen asked with a smile, already grabbing some bandages while you gave her a small nod.
“Yeah, see ya”, you said back, grabbing your jacket while the anticipation begun to grow in your body, only rising as you finally stepped out onto the porch that was enlightened by the morning sun.
A soft breeze was brushing over your skin, bringing a little peace into your still tried body while a smile began to grow on your lips as you realized that only a few minutes parted you from huddling up to Negan.
You couldn’t wait to feel his arms wrapping around you, feel him tucking you in along with him beneath the blanket and nuzzle your nose into the warmth of his neck just so you could doze back off and get something of the sleep back you lost while treating the patients all night. Your thoughts only let the smile grow wider as you hopped down the stairs of the porch and made your way down the street, enjoying the warmth of the rising sun that danced over your skin.
A content sigh left your lips as you made your way further down the street, your eyes fixing on the path you were making every single day for the last seven years before a figure made its way into your field of vision that threw your good mood slowly off.
His face was twisted in anger, the eyebrows pulled into a tight curve, his eyes squinting even though it couldn’t cover the furiousness burning within them while his hands clutched a piece of paper while he stumped towards you.
For a moment, you questioned that Kent was walking towards you, wondering if it had to do anything with the bad news about Rosita and Eugene you had gotten yesterday but with each step he came closer, you excluded it more and more.
He was having you as his target, for whatever reason.
“You wanna tell me anything about this?!”, he growled, as only a couple feet parted you, the hand with the paper sheet rising up, almost holding it into your face as you glanced full of confusion at him.
“What is this?”, you only choked out watching as more fury spread over his features with each of your words.
“Are you fucking kidding me?”, he growled, his jaw clenching threateningly as he pushed the sheet finally into your hands.
“Laid on his bed in his cell, you wanna explain this?”
With now shaking hands you began to unfold the paper, still utterly confused and with the worst scenarios sneaking into your head before your eyes eventually scanned over the familiar handwriting that shook you to the core.

I’m coming back, Sweetheart. Gabriel let the door open and I had to take the damn chance. I’ll be fine, so don’t you worry your pretty head off. Don’t risk shit and come after me, just trust me. I’ll make it right for us.
Love you more than fucking anything.
– Negan

“He’s gone”, Kent spellt it out for you as an icy shudder ran down your back while your eyes went over and over along the lines, still feeling as if you were caught in a surreal dream instead of reality.
“You set this up with him? Pushing the fault on Gabriel? You-”, Kent growled out but instead of reacting to his accusations your mind ran past it, your head only twirling around Negan as you cut him off.
“He can’t be gone-…I-”, you stumbled, your fingers clamping on the edge of the sheet, your eyes still tracing over it over and over again while your throat was beginning to tighten as your body filled with worry and more confusion. Before you could even notice anything else you felt yourself moving past him, urged to see it for yourself, urged to go to the place you last saw Negan.
“Where the hell are you going?”, you heard the man snap, keeping up with you as you rushed down the still empty streets of Alexandria.
“I…I have to see this for myself.”

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Summary: While the reader gets involuntary pulled into the fight on the bridge, Negan remains in his cell and racks his head over how to finally tell her those three famous words.

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The soft sun light was streaming into the cell, dipping it into a warm light that had the power to soften even the cold stone walls surrounding you.
Your eyes were only half opened, your body not ready to fully come back yet as you shifted closer into the warmth by your side, taking in the comforting scent that was engulfing you as the figure holding you began to shift slightly.
He was still asleep, swinging somewhere far away as your head turned slightly, moving a bit from the comfortable spot on his broad chest to let your eyes run over his peacefully sleeping face.
He still looked as handsome as ever, enough to take your breath away and keep you in a certain trance, but still, it was obvious what the cell had done to his appearance by now.
His beard had grown longer, the salt slowly beginning to dominate the pepper while his hair remained black as pitch, even though it was shorter than usual, still coined by the last time they had cut it.
It had been a year and a couple of months by now.
A year and a couple of months in which a whole lot had happened.
Just shortly after the day you had come back to the cell things had began to truly develop.
Maggie had given birth to a little boy who was now carrying the name of his grandfather and just around this time things had began to truly change around Alexandria.
It was thriving.
The windmill that had been in planing back then was now standing tall within the walls that were stronger than ever.
The houses and the church had been rebuild, shining brightly and not showing a sign of the flames that had once torn them apart.
Several cropfields were planted all over Alexandria, nourishing it and the other communities including the Sanctuary with all they could provide, ranking from deep red and tasty tomatoes to luscious and juicy apples.
There truly seemed to be peace for now, there was still a certain tension swinging here and there in the air, but coming from a spot where each of the sides were ready to rip each other apart, this seemed like something impossible beginning to become possible.
Things would be great, if only Negan’s freedom would be one of them.
You would be lying if you would say the cell was easy to deal with, even though he had overcome the first obstacles along with you, you could see how much it tried to impact him.
One day, you still hoped he’d get out and get the chance to show that there was more to him than what the people were thinking and maybe, maybe find the right way to his good intentions that you were sure lingered within him.

With a content hum you nuzzled your nose into the warmth of his neck, feeling how the slight imprint of his scar was brushing against your skin as you pressed your lips softly to it, hearing how it elicited a small, pleasant growl to fall from Negan’s throat.
“Mornin’ Baby”, he grumbled, tightening his arm that had lazily rested around your waist, pulling you closer into his warmth as his lips pressed a sloppy morning kiss to your temple.
”Morning”, you mumbled, back burying your head deeper in the curve of his neck, neither ready nor willing to get up yet.
”Wanna hide in that damn beard?”, Negan throatily chuckled, his hand moving to teasingly squeeze your waist as you just gave him a sleepy grumble back.
”Hmm, thought you were excited for that damn bridge.”
The bridge.
Once made to be able to carry the cars and trucks of people rushing to their woks through the woods had over the draining time of abandonment let nature take most of it.
And out of all times it began to fall apart now when it was actually being used again, needed just like the other routes to transport supplies to the other communities.
It had been already 35 days since the project had started and most of the time you had switched between Alexandria and the quarter of tents they had build up there, helping Siddiq in the provisory infirmary.
But now that Enid was joining in, trying to help as well with her new learned knowledge, you were needed right at the pulsing spot of the bridge, right on the stems to help building it, at least for now.
Negan was right in some way, you were excited to get out of that tent for once, but there were other factors greatly playing in.
After all, you weren’t the only one on that bridge, new and old faces were swarming over it as well and especially this one old one gave you chills.
Daryl.
With the most of them, things were beginning to work out.
You were growing closer to Rick and Michonne again, were earning most of their trust back, just like Gabriel, Aaron’s and some of the others.
There were a few that were still showing you the cold shoulder whenever you were close to them and by now, these people weren’t letting you care all too much.
You didn’t like it, but you weren’t gonna push yourself onto people and make yourself a fool.
You neither had to be everybody’s darling nor did you have to please each and everyone.
But Daryl, yes Daryl was the only one of those you really wished to have back.
Dryly said you could “coexist”, you could be at the same place without him going off like a firework at new years eve but except for his grumbles, you hadn’t exchanged one proper word.
If you were honest, you feared that one or just a couple of words from yours towards him would let that rocket explode after all.
But those thoughts were drifting off in these moments as you cuddled closer into Negan’s embrace, eager to soak up the last bit of his comfort until you had to abandon the bed eventually.
”Don’t wanna leave yet”, you grumbled against his skin with a light chuckle, hearing a throaty one rumbling back in response as he wrapped his arms tighter around your body and pulled you closer until his lips moved in to press another drowsy kiss to your skin.
”Then I’ll just keep ya here”, he chuckled lowly, his raspy voice vibrating against your skin before you lifted your head slowly from his shoulder and glanced sleepily at him.
”Could think of some plans”, he grumbled, raising his brows suggestively as his drowsy hazel eyes glanced at you, his lips formed into the signature grin while you let out a small laugh and shoved his chest playfully.
”Oh, I’m sure of that.”

“Take care, alright?”, Negan grumbled just a little bit later as he stood with you in the middle of the cell, holding you in his arms after you had finally gotten yourselves to slip out of the bed and get ready.
He was keeping you close, his hazel eyes wandering over your face as a wider smirk let the muscles in his cheek twitch.
“Need you back in that bed tonight”, he added lowly, a grin dancing over his handsome features as his hand ran down your body to give your ass a tight squeeze before a throaty chuckle left his lips as he caught you flinching slightly in response.
“Nah, I’m serious”, he mumbled as he tipped in to press a short kiss to your lips  before you gave him a small nod.
“I know, but it’s just the bridge, not the same as taking care of wounds and stuff but it’s still fine”, you muttered back, running your hands from his shoulders to his neck, caressing your fingers through his dark hair at the nape of his neck while a pleasant growl elicited his lips.
His lips met yours in another peck, just until he pulled away, gulping slightly as he remained close enough for you to feel his hot breath brushing over your skin.
“Fuck, I-”, he began, before his voice suddenly broke off again, leaving you confused as you leaned closer in.
“Hmm?”, you mumbled against his lips, feeling him pulling you closer as the grin got back on his lips.
“Can’t fucking wait till you’re back”, he grumbled with a throaty chuckle, teasingly squeezing your waist before he finally leaned back in, giving in to the longing you were feeling too.
Just as soon as his lips captured yours again, the heavy footsteps of the guard coming down the cement stairs echoed through the cell, slowly but surely inducing your departure for the day.

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An imagine about the 15th episode of season 8

After their first night together, Negan and the Reader’s relationship develops some more in-between the deathly fight against Simon, Dwight’s betrayal and Carl’s letter

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“Good fuckin’ morning”, you heard Negan’s raspy voice mumble, his warm breath ghosting over your skin as you felt his lips pressing light kisses onto your neck and along your jaw, all while your eyes were still closed as you slowly slipped out of the sleep’s grasp.
“Morning”, you mumbled drowsily back as your eyes fluttered slowly open, a smile forming on your lips as soon as you saw his hazel eyes darting at you, the warm light of the dawn letting them look even warmer than usual.
His dark hair was tousled, some hair strands hanging into his face while his lips were curled up into the mix of a smile and a wide smirk before he leaned down to capture yours.
Small, content growls rumbled through his chest as your fingers slid over his skin, feeling how he pulled you into a deeper kiss until he let slowly go of you.

“Shit, I don’t wanna get up”, he grumbled against your lips, pulling you a little closer against his still bare skin while a small hum left your mouth by the feeling of his touch, your mind still trying to realize what had happened last night.
“Then don’t”, you mumbled with a small chuckle back as you leaned your head against his warm chest while a throaty chuckle let it vibrate against your skin.
“Oh I wish. If I could, hell, I’d spent the whole damn day with you in bed”, he mumbled, his fingertips caressing over your shoulder just before a sigh left his mouth.
“But I gotta find out what the hell Laura got to tell. As much as she made a secret out if it, it’s gotta be some big shit”, Negan grumbled while he leaned down again to press his lips onto your neck, your finger lacing into his dark hair just before a small purr left his lips as he felt the way you huddled up against him.
“Fuck, don’t make it even harder for me”, he growled with a low chuckle, his teeth teasingly tugging on your skin as a small punishment, your body flinching slightly by the slight burning it caused that just provoked you to press your body a little more against his.
A small but deep groan fell from his lips as his arms tightened around you for a moment, his face burying deeper into the nook of your neck before a sigh left his lips as the walkie on the nightstand beeped, reminding him that he should have left the bed way earlier.
“Boss? Just wanted to let you know that I’ve brought Laura to the meeting room. She’s waiting.”

Minutes later you found yourself alone in the bed, rolled on your stomach as you hugged the pillow beneath your head and watched how Negan slipped his arms into the smooth leather of his jacket.
With a small huff his fingers laced around Lucille’s handle, his lips forming into a grin as soon as he caught you watching him before he walked back over to the bed and leaned down until his lips could press a kiss onto your forehead.
“You know what? While I’m at it, you can sleep some more, guess you need it after last night”, he chuckled as he leaned his tall frame straight up again.
“Probably” you mumbled with a small chuckle, Negan’s eyes following his fingertips as they traced lightly over your arm, his glance growing with hunger again that truly showed how much he’d prefer to stay.
“I’ll get us some breakfast later on, sounds good?”, Negan asked, his fingers moving up until they could stroke a few hair strands out of your face.
“Very good”, you mumbled with a smile back, still feeling the effect his touch had on you. 

“Gotta be strengthened before I take Simon to fucking task. Can’t wait to see that asshole’s surprised face, I really fucking hope he shits his damn pants”, Negan chuckled, his hand running over his salt and pepper stubble as he grinned down at you.
“I’d love to see that”, you said with a small chuckle back, feeling him stroking one last time over your skin before he forced himself to walk over to the door.
With the handle already in his hand he looked back at you, the smirk still on his lips as his eyes ran over the shape your body formed beneath the dark sheets.
“See ya later, Baby.”

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Summary: After a frustrating argument with Michonne over her safety concerns and harsh new rules stretches the Reader to her limits, Negan steps in to cheer his girl up
(episode: 9×12)

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Voices echoed through the tall hall of the church, angry voices stuck in a thick discussion. You were part of it too, had been to be more exact until a few minutes ago, you were tired of it by now, frustrated even more. 
It was only a half day ago that Negan had returned to the cell, not more than an hour or two ago since Michonne and the others had returned from the Hilltop with devastating and chilling news.
Jesus was dead, killed by a new emerged threat, a group that was walking disguised as the dead within them, killing everything that was coming into their way. Michonne and the rest had managed to catch one of them on the day after, the daughter of their leader who was now caged up in the one of the Hilltop’s cells, waiting for what else was to come.
The Hilltop wasn’t the only community that was struggling, the Kingdom was too, but not with the living dead, but their supplies. Their fair should save them, bring them back into the game but as always, Michonne had disagreed to let Alexandria participate, not even after a second plea of Carol.
And this wasn’t everything that had prattled down on you just a little while ago, Rosita was fine again, but pregnant and not from Gabriel but Siddiq, after a short and unmeaningly affair before Rosita’s relationship with the priest had even begun. The whole mood in the council’s meeting room was already tense, but putting these two men in here didn’t add up to a better atmosphere.
The cherry on the top really was Michonne right now, her repeating lecture on safety concerns that was slowly but surely cutting Alexandria off of every other community, fueling your frustration.
It was the same damn thing every time, about every little thing.
No matter what the council decided, Michonne did in the very end what she wanted, almost as if the council only existed anymore to make it seem like she wasn’t the only source of power in Alexandria. It was nerve-recking, especially after you had fought for their trust and a place on the council for so long, a council that now didn’t seem to even exist anymore.
You had often discussed with her about this, just like the others, but today you were zooming out, trying to process the everything that was happening around you, including Negan’s return to the cell.
You’d been there when the door had fallen into the lock again, watching as he laid the new leather jacket next to the bed and slipped back into the prisoner’s clothes and you’d lie if you’d say your heart hadn’t been caught up in a row of stings. Negan seemed fine with it, more than you had ever thought, but you kept seeing him before your inner eye. In the woods, in freedom, with his arms wrapped around you and your head buried into the soft leather that gave you flashbacks to the time before the prison.
You wanted him here with you in Alexandria, but you wanted him to be a free walking men as well, and those two components didn’t fit well, at least not to everybody but you and him.
A thick sigh left your lips as you leaned yourself against one of the church’s benches while another row of voices echoed through the hall, strong enough to catch your attention this time. 
“What does is mean for Alexandria to survive if it means that the Kingdom falls?”, Siddiq asked, stepping closer towards Michonne, his eyes filled with disbelieve as nothing more than coldness pressed in over Michonne’s face.
“It means, Alexandria survives.”
And with these words she shot him any even icier glare, holding his glance for a couple more seconds before breaking it off and pushing herself past the table the others were surrounding. She was rushing as fast out as always after such discussions, leaving a tension in the room that you could almost cut with a knife.
“Great”, you heard Gabriel scoff, propping himself with his hands onto the table while he squeezed his eyes shut in frustration. 
“We should go back to work, we can’t do anything more for the moment”, you heard Laura say as you pushed yourself away from the bench’s backrest and glanced at Siddiq who was still standing right where Michonne had left him, before he forced himself out of his trance and nodded slowly.
“Yeah”, he grumbled, the annoyance clearly stuck in his voice before he let a sigh fall from his lips and glanced at you, “Lets get back to the infirmary, at least what we’re doing there is useful.”

The sun was already beginning to vanish behind the skyline of Alexandria’s walls and the tall trees behind them as you slipped your arms through the sleeves of your jacket, ready to leave the house after taking a hot shower that had washed a little bit of the load of stress the day had put on your shoulders until you had finished work a half hour ago.
A uncomfortable tension had laid over the infirmary all day, fueled by Siddiq’s frustration because of Michonne’s decisions, paired with the Rosita drama that wasn’t much of a good mix and you were everything else than cheerful after this morning’s meeting as well. You had never thought you would say so, but by now, you were glad that Michonne had moved out of the house and into one of the townhouses. The reasons back then had nothing to do with the situation now, instead her decision had been urged by the pain Rick’s death had forced up, leaving stains all over the house as well as it had been supported by the more fitting rooms for the kids in the townhouse, still you were unfortunately glad about it now.
You tried to shake the thoughts about Michonne off, letting a relieved sigh out as you now felt the smooth leather hugging your body, rising your anticipation to come back to Negan as you walked into the hallway, ready to finally leave.
You were already swinging in a more comfortable mood before the door suddenly flew open, squeaking in protest as it arched by the power the push had forced on it.
Your eyes widened immediately as your gaze glued to the entrance, catching the woman who was standing in the doorframe, furiousness in her eyes, brows puckered in anger and a chest that was rising and falling harshly.
“You’ve been talking to him?”, Michonne hissed as she stepped into the house, rising the confusion within you as she threw the door back into its lock.
“What?”, you asked, watching as she moved closer and let out a bittersweet huff.
“You’ve been talking to Negan about the council?”, she growled, shooting you a dangerous glare, “Bad enough that he’s eavesdropping on us but that you slip him intel-”
“I’m not slipping him intel”, you cut her immediately off, feeling how the frustration of this midday was boiling up again within you, mixing with new ones fueled by her accusation,”I’m talking to him, did you expect anything else?”
“I expected you to be responsible”, she growled, her eyes narrowing in even more anger, the very same one that began to grow in you as well.
“I am”, you quickly and firmly retorted before she could throw anything else at you ,”He isn’t doing any harm. Think he’s proven that enough.”
“Oh so you two agreed in advance about what to say?”, she snapped as you just stared in utter confusion at her that drowned the frustration for a tiny moment.
“Your boyfriend just told me to trust him a little more. Even let him be an advisor in matters of leader decisions”, she hissed with another bittersweet chuckle, as if she had talked to someone out of his mind.
“Michonne-”
“I don’t wanna hear it, (Y/N). I’m closing his windows and I strongly advise you to not talk to him about anything concerning the council anymore”, she cut you off in the matter of a millisecond, leaving you to process what she had just said that made you snap out of the frustration that had whirled back through you, and instead filled you with shock.
“You’re closing his windows? Michonne you can’t do that”,you said, the bitterness gone out of your voice and replaced with instant worry about Negan ,”It’s his only way to get some of the world outside that cellar.”
For a moment, you forgot her as fear flooded your veins. He already once had nothing but the cellar, he had once been completely cut off and you had seen to what that had pushed him. Shit, you had seen him on the edge of losing himself. 
What if taking the window away, the interactions with Judith, simply hearing other people’s voices and having day light, what if that would urge him to fall back into a hole again, or to at least make him tangle on its edge?
“Well that’s the plan”,Michonne brought you back to reality, befuddling you even more with her icy coldness, “He is a threat.”
“He’s not he-”
“He’s a monster, nothing else. In case I need to remind you again he killed two of our friends. He took Glenn’s chance to be a father”, she growled and with that, she shifted a switch within you. You’ve had to hear these things over and over again over all these years until it seemed like a record that played on endless loop, all while the people who called him a monster had done just as monstrous things, with the only difference that they were now playing the innocent lambs.
“And Rick didn’t? From Gracie’s dad by massacring him? We didn’t kill a whole fucking outpost?!”, it suddenly shot out of you, anger raging in your voice as you passed past the points of keeping your calm. You weren’t one of the people to go off by the littlest inconvenience, but this was too much by now. Too much frustration, too much anger, too much injustice and hypocrisy.
“Don’t take his name-“
“What? Cause it’s the truth?!”, you snapped before she could yell further at you and forbid you to speak. Rick was a risky topic, but she wasn’t taking a single fuck about your feelings, about your issues no matter if they were of personal matter or about her leading style, so why should you? Why should you if those things she was saying were turning things upside down, pushing them to let them shine in false light just because she liked it that way.
“I’m so fucking tired of you all being huge fucking hypocrites acting as if you’re saints and he’s the devil. you’re judging with double standards”, you hissed, trying to not turn your voice into a shrill yell while the frustration you had build up was pushing further and further in on you,”He’s done fucked up stuff but so have we, so have you. He’s been for seven and a half years in there, if we’re going by your logic we all would need to be locked up”
Your breaths were heavy and harsh, almost as if they were cutting cracks into your throat, but you didn’t care. This goddamn injustice was going on and on for years now, sentencing him to a whole life in prison while she wasn’t an ounce better and was allowed to live her life freely, as if she hadn’t massacred people without the bat of an eyelid.
You had all done the most terrible things to survive, but only for him it got turned into the most horrible deed a human being could do.
“Careful”, she warned you, stepping closer as her eyes bored into yours.
“So this is gonna be like always, huh? Someone has another opinion and you shut it down, no matter what”, pure frustration was speaking out of you, calmer now but still firm, fueled by the discussion from earlier. She huffed, shaking her head before her eyes arrowed once more dangerously.
“Do you really want to test me?”, she asked, a just as dangerous calmness spread over her face,”I can take your privileges of seeing him, just like that.”
For a moment, you just stared at her in disbelief, shocked by the person in front of you that didn’t seem at all like the friend you once had, and pushed into more fear of actually having to fight for seeing Negan.
“You can’t-“
“Yes I can”, she cut you off, glaring at you before she took a step closer to you, her voice dangerously calm,”And you know what I’ll do too? I’m excluding you of the council. You’re endangering us by slipping a prisoner intel.”
For a second, you felt like you were falling into a hole yourself, as if she had pulled the rug from beneath your feet. 
You had fought for your place there, no matter what you were thinking about the current situation. This place at the council had taken much time and work, she couldn’t just take that away from you. She couldn’t just exclude you because of a disagreement,
“For the last time, I’m not slipping him-“, you tried to defend yourself one last time before you caught in her glance that it was over for now, that no matter what you would say now would make the situation any bit better, but would actually make it worse, in the most horrible case for Negan too.
”I really don’t know you anymore. I always thought you’d be the reasonable one. Turns out you’re not”, you huffed, pain finding its way into you about the friend in front of you that was completely lost now.
“If you think that. Then so be it”, she coldly retorted, as if nothing of what you had said just nearly touched her, nor made her care, letting the shock and frustration overshadow the pain within you quickly.
This was the situation seven years ago all over again.
Negan was the monster, you were the traitor and everybody else was the knight in shining armor.
And these old, conserved feelings let more anger wash up in you, along with the thought of what could await Negan now that she really seemed to go through with her plan no matter what you said. And this all was pressing in on you, like a burden that was collapsing on your shoulders.
You stared at her for a moment longer, a small part of you hoping that she’s still change her mind, let at least shine through that she cared a little but nothing,
There was nothing but coldness in her eyes.
“Screw You, Michonne. Seriously, screw you”, it slipped out of your lips, your voice trembling as you couldn’t keep any of your fury cooped up anymore that mixed with the deep rooted agony. 
You didn’t care if you were being the one fleeing right now as you shoved yourself past her and rushed out of the house, you were just done with the whole day so far.
You just wanted to get to Negan now.

The way to the cell felt longer than usual.
With each step you could feel more tears forcing themselves into your eyes, turning your view into a blurry mess while all the thoughts and things Michonne had said were pressing in on you. You were able to keep them in for now, keep them from spilling over but while you kept them in it felt like you were bottling them dangerously up, forcing them to escape later with a harsher pressure.
It felt like the old times, like all these years ago and you hated every single bit of it.
Your whole body stayed tense until the very moment you stepped into the cell and felt Negan’s worried glance on you until his strong arms wrapped around you and finally pulled you into his soothing embrace.
”What happened?”, you heard him ask as you buried your head into his warmth, the tone in his voice indicating that part of him already knew what this was all about, still, you answered.
”Michonne happened.”

Negan’s arms were still wrapped around you as you found yourself sitting on the edge of the bed, leaning into his side while you tried to put the day into words and listen to his own encounter with Michonne as well, to her mocking in response to his statement that he had changed, to what she was planning to do with the cell, and on top of all, to Judith who had just tried to get help with her homework and was now most certainly in trouble as well.
The words just kept spilling out of your both mouths, as if the bottle was finally opened and all the suspense could flow out.
”Shit…I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have mentioned you in any fucking way, I-”, he grumbled, utter guilt stuck in his voice after hearing of your exclusion of the council, made my Alexandria’s leader herself.
”This isn’t your fault, she would’ve known either way”, you mumbled back, glancing up into his hazel eyes that ran over your face, brushing over your features as he slowly nodded, before he gulped thickly.
”The thing about the windows…, don’t worry, alright?”, he asked, holding you a little tighter as he glanced from you to the windows and back, all while you shook your head and felt the next rush of frustration coming over you.
“No Negan, this isn’t fair”, you said, the mumbling from before turning into a tense and now also trembling mess, ”She can’t just keep pretending that she’s the saint and cut you off from everything as if you’re some blood thirsty monster.”
Your breath was heavy enough to make your chest shake harshly as all the thoughts that had rushed through your head during your argument with her streamed back into your head.
You had told him everything, everything but about your fear of a relapse.
You just didn’t want to worry him even more or worse, provoke a backslide all the more by showing him your fear.
But you couldn’t fool Negan, couldn’t in the past, couldn’t do now and as his arm around you tightened and his eyes kept sticking to your face, as if he was trying to read your thoughts you knew already what he was gonna ask next.
”There’s more, huh?”, his own voice was filled with concern, paired with the knowledge that you were keeping something from him to not worry him more than he already was.
A thick sigh fell from your lips as your glance wandered from him to the cement ground for a moment, realizing as always that you had to tell him, no matter the effect it could have.
“I’m just…I’m afraid”, you mumbled, licking your lips nervously as you glanced back up at him and allowed a shivering breath to leave your lips before you rose your voice,”I don’t…I don’t want you them to push you into that hole again.”
“I won’t fall into that hole again, Baby”, he retorted in the matter of seconds while his tension filled glance grew softer and his arms held you a little tighter.
“Come on, as long as I got ya I’ll be all fine”, he added in the very next moment, watching your reaction closely as he gave you a small chuckle that paired with a small grin ,”Seriously, things are different now than they were back then.”
“I know…I’m just frustrated…”, you mumbled, feeling how he reached up and let the palm of his large hand cup the side of your face to let his thumb brush over it, brushing of some dried tears and soothing you with his touch.
“I know, Sweetheart”, he muttered with a nod, leaning in to press a small kiss to your lips while you softly nodded and allowed yourself to sink for a moment into him.
“But this isn’t done…I’ll talk to her again when things have calmed down a little. I won’t let her take this away from you”, you added as soon as his lips parted from yours, giving in to an inner urge to not loose the very last hope you had, maybe to not go crazy once for all.
“You first get back into the council, that’s more important than my windows”, he softly chuckled, pulling you closer before you quickly shook your head. 
“No, it’s not”, you mumbled with a soft sigh, “Council’s one shitshow either way, as long Michonne doesn’t change it’s just sham.”
Negan just softly nodded, keeping you close as he leaned in for another kiss and let his lips caress over yours, allowing to let the frustration beat the retreat a little and instead fill you with comfort until he backed a little away and gave you a slight grin.
“Whatever comes next, we’ll get through this. Fuckin’ know it”

“Come here”, Negan mumbled as he settled a few soothing kisses and touches later into the pillow at the end of the bed, spreading his arms and nodding with a soft smile towards them. Slowly nodding you responded by shifting towards him over the sheets, sniffing just slightly for the last time before you dove into his embrace.
With a soft hum you nuzzled your head into the curve of his neck and moved your leg over his hip, allowing you to sink into his side as your arm slung around his torso and hugged him back.
His arms were holding you tightly as his lips pressed a warm kiss to your forehead, allowing his beard stubble to tickle your skin and form a small smile on your lips. 
“Y’know, I still got something for ya….hope it lifts your mood a little”, he mumbled after only  few moment had passed as he shifted a little and stuck his fingers into his pant’s pockets, rummaging as you hummed in confusion and heard him letting out a low chuckle.
“Won’t be my dick this time, I promise”, he laughed quietly before the movements stopped as he slowly got his hand out of his pockets. “Don’t know if you thought I forgot about it but damn, I didn’t”, he mumbled, as he formed his hand into a fist, hiding what was hidden within, “Couldn’t repair your bracelet but I…well lets say I improvised a little.”
With these words and another small chuckle he opened his hand, revealing what was hiding in its large palm. 
A ring, the one that had just a small while ago laid in the box with the goods he was trying to repair. Before the troughs of its metal had been empty, its stones gone for years but now they were filled up again with the tiny white diamonds that had once belonged to your bracelet.
“Finished it before gettin’ out…just weren’t sure when to give it to ya, so now seems like a good moment”, he said, a little tension stuck in his voice as you slowly lifted yourself a little, enough to prop yourself on one elbow and glance at the small good in his hand.
“It’s beautiful”, you mumbled, feeling how a larger smile was growing on your lips as soon as you touched the ring and realized how many curses he must have lost over it, trying to glue the small stones with his large hands to the thin ring. He’d lost his patience over all the other goods, but he had finished this one, no matter how many nerves it must have cost him.
“Damn glad you like it”, you heard him mumble as he shifted a little up in the pillows as you glanced once more at the familiar stones that twinkled in the light before you looked up into Negan’s hazel eyes.
“’Course I do…thank you so much”, you said, keeping the smile on your lips as you leaned in and kissed him softly, caressing your lips over his as his touch made the frustration vanish some more and brought you deeper into this moment in which you could forget about the rest of day that suddenly seemed to become much better.
“How much did you curse over it?”, you chuckled softly against his lips as he leaned in to peck you once more.
“Oh way too much…doesn’t matter tho”, he mumbled, pulling you into another kiss until you could feel him tensing a little as soon as your lips left his. 
“I just..I want you to know what I want that little fucker to represent”, he mumbled as you backed a little away, enough to glance into his eyes and catch the muscles in his face twitching, almost as if he was nervous.
“Meant what I said…as long as we two got each other everything’s fine as hell, was always that way”, he grumbled, sitting himself a little more up as he still held onto the ring in his hand, “You and me, that’s all we fucking need.”
“Yeah”, you mumbled with a nod as you reached up and caressed your fingertips over his beard stubble, smiling softly at him. You could feel him shifting a little more, enough to sit straight up and reach out to your legs to pull them over his legs and hug you closer as he cleared his throat softly, clenching his jaw as he grew a little more nervous.
“I know I can’t marry you the damn real way here…shit, can’t even propose the fuckin’ way I’d like…I’m just”, he stopped, shaking his head as he run one hand over his stubbly jaw ,”Talkin’ too much”
Your heart was already speeding up as you heard his words echoing through your head and felt how his hand that was still holding the ring was beginning to trace over your leg, nervously fumbling on the loose threads. 
“I just, I want you to know that we both are set in damn stone,…real damn marriage…not how it was with- them...”, he mumbled, struggling on that one word before he glanced up at you and pulled you a little tighter against him,”The fucking real way.”
The smile on your lips grew wider as you watched him relax a little in response to your reaction, grinning as he bit his lip.
 “And shit, we’ve actually been having that for all this time…no matter if we talked about it or not…you’re mine and holy shit I am fuckin’ yours, with neck and crop…and dick”, he chuckled with a wider grin, playfully squeezing your waist before he stroked softly along it, “And that won’t fuckin’ ever change.”
“We’re the real damn deal”, he added with a soft chuckle, holding you close as you nodded softly, feeling the warmth spreading further through your body, sweeping into every little inch of yours and turning the rest anger into happiness.
“Yeah”, you mumbled, running your hand up his chest until you let it rest on its center and glanced happily at him,”We are.”
“Now that finger looks a little naked, huh?”, Negan grumbled in the next moment, nodding down to the hand on his chest before he glanced for a short moment up to grin at you and moved the ring closer towards it.
It only needed another soft nod of yours for him to pick your hand up and slip the slim ring over your finger, just as smooth as you had once done it when you had tried its damaged form on months ago, even though it felt so much better now.
And as your lips crashed onto his this time it felt like you were giving each other a silent promise on top of it, sealing off what had already been clear to the both of you all these years. Of course, you couldn’t marry with all the bells and whistles but Negan was right on this, as long as you both knew what your relationship meant to you, it was more than enough. 
“Y’know, if you wanna and if the situation will ever allow it, we can do it with all the little shit…hell, I can do more to make this all better…I-”, 
“You don’t need to…this is already perfect”, you muttered back, a soft smile still curling your lips as he stopped for a moment and backed away, enough to glance at you and raise his brows. 
“Negan, this is all I need. If we ever can get married the official way, I’ll marry you without batting an eyelash, but you don’t need to do more…giving the ring now so you can cheer me up and take care of me is so genuine and sweet, and real. That’s the best”, you said, glancing from the ring to his hazel eyes that began to soften even more, just like the smile on his lips that grew larger and the warmth in you that took over once for all.
You could still feel the smile as his lips caressed once more over yours, kissing you deeply as he held you tighter, as if he was never planning on letting you go again. “I love you”, he grumbled against your lips, pecking them as he sighed contently, “More than fucking anything.”
“I love you too”, you mumbled back, smiling softly as your fingers caressed over the salt and pepper stubbled, electing a small purr from deeply within his chest before he shifted a little with you on the bed, enough to move the both of you into the pillows to hold you even tighter.
“By the way…I’m not fuckin’ sweet”, he mumbled with a low chuckle as soon as you had cuddled deeper into his embrace, urging a small laugh to fall from your lips as you backed away again and glanced into his playful and teasing eyes.
“Yeah, you are”, you softly chuckled, grinning at him as you ran your hand over his firm chest, up until you could rest it on his neck and caress the sensitive skin while the tiny diamonds of the gift that was stuck to your finger twinkled in the rest sunlight,”No way you can prove me wrong on this.”
“Oh I could think of a way or two”, he thickly chuckled, grinning suggestively at you while his tongue slipped slowly over his lower lip, “Want me to try out?”
“Sure”, you chuckled back, already feeling how he was pulling you closer before you shot him a playful grin, “Still, you won’t convince me.”
“Oh, you’ll see, Baby. You’ll fucking see”

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Summary: When Negan escapes from his cell to find a way to a better future with the reader, he provokes a storm in Alexandria that gets the one person in trouble he wants to protect the most.

the last part / all other previous parts (None of the previous parts have to be read to understand the plot!)

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Sleep was still lulling you into its depths as a low voice began to stream through to you, slowly tickling the consciousness awake.
Softly groaning your tired mind tried to sort the voice into a category as it sounded through your head once more, pushing you enough to the edge of wakefulness to let your eyes flutter slowly open.
Your view was blurry at first, only taking in the brown hair and hazy features of the man in front of you before it got clearer with each passing second.
“Miles?”, you groaned drowsily, wrinkling your brows in confusion before your head bounced into reality and made you remember where you were.
In a bed of the infirmary, not by Negan’s side in the cell.
Working all day and night before laying down to take a nap while all the patients were sleeping –
Shit.
“Oh crap, the patients”, you called out, standing almost straight in your bed as you were suddenly wide awake, cursing yourself for oversleeping.
You had laid down when it had been completely dark outside, now the morning sun was shining brightly through the windows, urging you to realize that your exhaustion had urged your body to take more sleep than you had planned.
“Its fine, they’re all still sleeping, and if they wake up, Karen’s already ready to take care of them. We’re taking over now, came back earlier from the run than we thought”, your co worker said, giving you a small smile as your muscles began to tense a little less and the adrenaline that had rushed through your veins decreased, “I just decided to wake you up so you know we’re back.”
“Okay, thank you…sorry though, just couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore and they were all asleep”, you mumbled, adjusting your clothes as you heft yourself up from the bed and have him an apologizing smile.
“Don’t worry, can’t blame it on you, keeping that thing here going all alone is one hell of a job, no wonder you needed a break”, he chuckled before he nodded towards the half open door, “You mind getting Karen and me up to speed? Then you’re all free for now.”

“And Will’s wound is doing better, still needs the salve Siddiq mixed for him though.. but that must be it”, you said as you found yourself standing ten minutes later in the kitchen of the infirmary while both of them listened to you as you finished going through the list of patients that laid in the beds of the infirmary.
“Great, then we see you back tomorrow, right?”, Karen asked with a smile, already grabbing some bandages while you gave her a small nod.
“Yeah, see ya”, you said back, grabbing your jacket while the anticipation begun to grow in your body, only rising as you finally stepped out onto the porch that was enlightened by the morning sun.
A soft breeze was brushing over your skin, bringing a little peace into your still tried body while a smile began to grow on your lips as you realized that only a few minutes parted you from huddling up to Negan.
You couldn’t wait to feel his arms wrapping around you, feel him tucking you in along with him beneath the blanket and nuzzle your nose into the warmth of his neck just so you could doze back off and get something of the sleep back you lost while treating the patients all night. Your thoughts only let the smile grow wider as you hopped down the stairs of the porch and made your way down the street, enjoying the warmth of the rising sun that danced over your skin.
A content sigh left your lips as you made your way further down the street, your eyes fixing on the path you were making every single day for the last seven years before a figure made its way into your field of vision that threw your good mood slowly off.
His face was twisted in anger, the eyebrows pulled into a tight curve, his eyes squinting even though it couldn’t cover the furiousness burning within them while his hands clutched a piece of paper while he stumped towards you.
For a moment, you questioned that Kent was walking towards you, wondering if it had to do anything with the bad news about Rosita and Eugene you had gotten yesterday but with each step he came closer, you excluded it more and more.
He was having you as his target, for whatever reason.
“You wanna tell me anything about this?!”, he growled, as only a couple feet parted you, the hand with the paper sheet rising up, almost holding it into your face as you glanced full of confusion at him.
“What is this?”, you only choked out watching as more fury spread over his features with each of your words.
“Are you fucking kidding me?”, he growled, his jaw clenching threateningly as he pushed the sheet finally into your hands.
“Laid on his bed in his cell, you wanna explain this?”
With now shaking hands you began to unfold the paper, still utterly confused and with the worst scenarios sneaking into your head before your eyes eventually scanned over the familiar handwriting that shook you to the core.

I’m coming back, Sweetheart. Gabriel let the door open and I had to take the damn chance. I’ll be fine, so don’t you worry your pretty head off. Don’t risk shit and come after me, just trust me. I’ll make it right for us.
Love you more than fucking anything.
– Negan

“He’s gone”, Kent spellt it out for you as an icy shudder ran down your back while your eyes went over and over along the lines, still feeling as if you were caught in a surreal dream instead of reality.
“You set this up with him? Pushing the fault on Gabriel? You-”, Kent growled out but instead of reacting to his accusations your mind ran past it, your head only twirling around Negan as you cut him off.
“He can’t be gone-…I-”, you stumbled, your fingers clamping on the edge of the sheet, your eyes still tracing over it over and over again while your throat was beginning to tighten as your body filled with worry and more confusion. Before you could even notice anything else you felt yourself moving past him, urged to see it for yourself, urged to go to the place you last saw Negan.
“Where the hell are you going?”, you heard the man snap, keeping up with you as you rushed down the still empty streets of Alexandria.
“I…I have to see this for myself.”

Your breath was shivering and harsh as you stumbled down the stairs, almost falling as you felt your legs becoming weaker with each step while your trembling hands still clutched the handwritten note.
Part of you still tried to convince yourself hat you were still laying in the bed at the infirmary your mind was only churning up an odd dream fueled by your body’s exhaustion but as soon as you stepped into the cellar even this part vanished into thin air.
The cell was empty.
For a moment you froze to the spot before you stumbled slowly into the cell, glancing around the room, at the bed where Kent had found the note you were holding in your hands as if your life depended on it.
“You’re gonna stop playing that game now?”, you heard Kent’s voice suddenly behind you, snapping you out of the trance the shock had kept you in while you first realized what he was accusing you off.
“I am not playing any game”, you choked out as you turned around, glancing into his furious eyes that contributed to the mess of emotions that was beginning to whirl faster through you,”How the hell should I’ve helped him?”
You could feel yourself torn up between the worry of what would happen now and the rising anger of Kent’s accusation, only fueled by a provoking rising of his eyebrows as if you were pulling an act on him.
“I haven’t seen him since yesterday midday, I was at the infirmary the whole time, ask the patients or Miles and Karen…”, you said, just as shaky as peeved, too shaken by what was happening around you to react to the mess he was trying to throw at you.
“Sure thing, (Y/N)”, he snapped sarcastically, shaking his head as he stared with you before he let out a thick huff and stormed up the stairs, following the voices that were beginning to grow louder outside the jail.
A shaky breath fell from your lips as you found yourself alone in the middle of the cell, still confused and as if you were stuck in a surreal dream.
You found yourself sitting down on his bed, staring at the note in your hands while reality began to sneak up on you and began to filter your emotions out of the mess that was whirling through you.
You weren’t mad at Negan, not at all. You’d always wanted him out of this cell, but with these circumstances right now, you were more worried than anything.
He was one strong and big man, but also one that hadn’t been outside for seven years and hadn’t even killed nor seen a walker since then. 
He was lacking practice and even though you trusted in his skills and determination, even the fittest fighters were able to get lost and hurt out there.
And that was the last damn thing you wanted.

For the first time in all these years, Negan could actually feel the sun shining down on him. Not just some light beaming through the windows of his cell, no, actual sunshine that seemed to surrounded all of him as he sat at the door of an empty caravan, chewing on some of the tomatoes he’d taken with him out of Alexandria. It wasn’t too much, but it was fine for the start.
Being outside was great, so damn great that it still felt little surreal even though he had to pay for it with a bittersweet taste that came along with the new grasped freedom.
He was alone, no living fuck anywhere around him and, and this bothered him much more right now, he still had to make a plan on how to act out what had actually made him leave the cell.
He still had to find a way to make it all right, to change his and her future into a brighter one than the one that had awaited them in the dark cell and fuck, he had to do so before anyone could find him outside here. They were probably all swarming out by now, trying to make up where he could go and how to catch him
All he hoped for at least was that they had found his letter and Gabey was man enough to admit that he had fucked up locking his cell door, putting no blame on his girl and leaving her the fuck alone.
A low groan left Negan’s lips as he swallowed the last piece to the tomato and washed it with the last gulp of water left in his bottle down, trying to shut down his worried thoughts and instead focus on his goal.
Pinching the bridge of his nose he breathed thoroughly out, clenching his jaw as he silenced his mind before a noise sounded through his head that he hadn’t heard in years.
A sickly sounding groan combined with snapping sounds of rotting teeth clashing on one another and low growls that were heralding the slowly approaching threat.
And even after all this time his instincts still reacted as fast as a lightning bolt striking through the air, forcing him to snap around as look into the dead eyes that were fixing on him.
A fucking dead asshole, with rotting skin dangling of its bones, threatening to fall off of it with every slurfing step it took as it rounded the caravan and snapped its jaw at Negan. Quickly, it elicited an annoyed huff to fall from his lips as he raised his body up and grabbed the shovel he took from Alexandria, ready to kill his first walker since seven years.

“It was my fault…I was thinking about Rosita-…I left the cell door open”, Gabriel’s voice sounded through the window in Negan’s cell through to you, eliciting a wave of relieve to wash over your body. For the last bit you’d only heard a bunch of people outside the cell wondering and theorizing about how Negan had escaped, some speaking in your favor while others were ranting about how it had only been a matter of time till you’d help him get out.
You hadn’t bothered to leave the cell and defend yourself once more, still too startled and worried to do much. 
A small part of what they said was right, you had lost some thoughts about letting him leave, but not out of spite towards the others, but for his wellbeing, especially during the time he had been nearly suicidal.
You’d always feared he’d fall into this hole again but no matter what you had thought, Negan had kept you from thinking any more about it than the bare minimum.
You could still hear him say he wouldn’t leave, even if you’d rip the door out of its angles, not wanting to risk your place in Alexandria and exchange it for a life on the run just so he could be a free man.
And he was right in the end, you’d always want him to leave the peaceful way, maybe get integrated into the community, no matter how surreal that seemed to the most.
Still, he was gone now.
Because it had been Gabriel to leave the door open, and not you.
A thick huff left your lips as you stared to your hands, hoping to grasp any sane thought even though the voices outside made thinking clearly even harder.
“We have to leave now and get him before Michonne returns. Can’t risk it.”
“Gotta plan it thoroughly. We need to have groups in all directions and with enough people…he’s an asshole but sly as a fox, we need to be sure to get him once we spot him.”
An ice cold shudder ran down your back as you listened to their voices, realizing once more that this was the bitter reality.
Of course they were gonna search for him.
A shivering sigh rumbled through your body as you sprung up, glancing through the windows that were showing you the Alexandrian’s that must have almost forgotten about you in their anger and almost panic.
They were still talking as they were slowly departing from the cell, making up a plan to catch Negan as fast as they could and with that, arguing about the one thing you couldn’t let happen.
No matter what Negan had asked you to do, no matter how much you liked to be able to stay back, trust him, follow his plea for once and hope that everything would just work out, you couldn’t.
You had to find him.
Before they did.

“Home, Sweet Home”, the words rolled from Negan’s lips smoothly as he finally stared at the familiar in front of him, the dark fabric that stood tall and impressive in front of him, like the stronghold it had always been.
His eyes wandered over his old home, the place that might help him to turn shit around for him and his girl now, all while a small grin forming on his lips for the first time in hours.
Till now, this fucking day hadn’t been much of a lucky one.
Killing walkers was as much of a pain in the ass as ever, especially when one of them lands on your supplies and taints them with its mushy and bloody fuckery of a body.
Drinking water out of a small river was a damn dumb idea too, that was noted in the back of his mind now as well, mostly after his body had cranked in disgust until all the shit that had swum in his stomach had left his body the wrong way out, and as a special treat, right at the damn clearing this whole shit had begun.
Fuck, he wasn’t even sure what had urged him there, regret, nostalgia, whatfuckingever, still the odds weren’t much in his favor and rather taunting to force him to throw up especially there.
Next damn thing had been a bunch of wild dogs that had almost torn him apart in a shop for clothes, ending up with him saving his ass in the very last minute.
But hey, at least he had a new fucking leather jacket, and damn that smooth shit felt so much better than that prison suit on his skin.
And now, it almost felt a little like it used too, a leatherjacket slung around his torso, a grin on his lips and a metal pipe resting on his shoulder like his dirty girl had used to.
Maybe this old place could help him with a new start.
Maybe this could be it.
Maybe.

A few food cans were clicking in your backpack, the knife tightly in your hands as you shuffled from the road first into the woods, hoping that the other Alexandrian’s wouldn’t directly see you and keep you from searching for him.
You stayed at its edge though, enough to see the road to keep track on where you were heading while you made your way through the undergrowth, each step determined.
He could be going anywhere judging from his note that seemed to say much by saying nothing concrete at all as well, for obvious reasons, still, your head was working on full speed, trying to figure out where to go, where to search for him.
He wanted to change something, for you two, so maybe he was going back to the root of it all to find a start.
The Sanctuary.
“(Y/N)”, a familiar voice made you flinch, echoing from the road through the trees as it let you immediately flinch up and turned your head towards its source.
“Judith? What are you doing outside?”, you choked out the moment you saw the girl standing on the blacktop, glancing at you while she clutched the heavy colt in her hands. 
“Same as you, I guess”, she said, shrugging her shoulders as you sighed and climbed out of the undergrowth of the woods, glancing to your sides to see if she was alone before a thicker huff left your lips.
“Judith, you can’t go out alone, what if-”
“Well now I’m not alone anymore, right?”, she said, nodding towards you and actually eliciting a small chuckle off your lips before you stepped closer to her, torn between what to do now before you already saw her changing the look in her eyes, almost as if she could guess that you’d tell her to let you take her home, to not get her into even more danger than she already was by simply being outside.
“I won’t go back…and I still got something to tell you”, she said, glancing up from beneath her Sheriff’s hat as you let out another sigh.
“Judi-”
“I let him go”, she mumbled, widening your eyes only with this small sentence as he pressed her lips sheepishly on one another before raising her voice again.
“I saw him climbing over the wall…he promised me not to hurt anyone, not even if they’d tried to hurt him…so I let him leave”, she said, huffing softly as her fingers fumbled on the metal of her gun, “He said he’ll make everything alright for you both, that’s why he had to go.”
A heavy breath fell from your lips as you listened to her, hearing those words again that fitted to the one on the note that were stuffed into the pockets of your pants.
“Maybe I can help you find him before the others, so you can talk to him”, she said, glancing up at you with that look that told you that she wouldn’t take a ‘no’ nor would she let you walk her home, back to Alexandria that must be about an hour march away by now.
“Okay…but you’ll stay right by my side”, you eventually said reluctantly after a couple moments of pondering and hoping that you’d be earlier back than Michonne before you watched a smile spreading over the girl’s lips.
“Great!”, she exclaimed, a wide smile spreading over her lips as she grabbed her colt tighter, held her hat with the other hand and began to sprint forward over the street, leaving your side within seconds.
“You’re coming?”, she called the next moment, turning around to look smiling but challenging at you before you couldn’t hide a grin as you shook your head and let out a small laugh.
“What did I just say?”

This wasn’t what he had wanted, not even what he had fucking expected the he had stood outside, all enthusiastic and hopeful too see his old home after all this time again. But there he was now, sitting in the great hall of the Sanctuary, or rather of what was left of it. 
It looked like nothing ever had happened here, as if this factory had been empty from the moment on the world had gone to shit.
As if no people had ever buzzed through this hall, working and selling their goods.
As if he had never held meetings in the room far up in the Sanctuary’s floors.
As if there never had been life inside these walls.
As if everything he had worked for and built up had never taken place. 

He didn’t even know what he had exactly expected when he had arrived here, after seven and a fucking half years. He’d known a couple things, the stuff (Y/N) had heard and told him, but even she hadn’t known everything about this place, nor its downfall. 
But here, here was nothing left. No person alive, just dead fuckers and one of his former lieutenants who had also seemed to have kicked the bucket years ago.
But shit, at least he’d stayed till the very end…oppositely to everybody else.
A thick gulp traveled down Negan’s throat as he glanced around from his crouched position on the couch in the middle of the hall at the furniture he had found sprawled out across the place and which was now aligned to a small room, almost as big as his cell back in Alexandria.
He couldn’t deny that part of him had hoped that moving things around and creating a little space with them would elicit a feeling of comfort in him, but there was nothing.
Just emptiness.
The ring for his girl he had stuffed into his pant’s pocket before escaping his cell was pressing now into his skin, as if it was trying to remind him that it was still present, urging and pushing his mind to rotate over and over again, churning him up from the very inside.
He’d really hoped he’d find something here that could help him change the situation, change their future and make it better, whatever the hell it might be.
But with nothing left here, his hopes seemed to dangle on a thin thread, daring to tear each other second.
Running his hand over his face, along the scruffy salt and pepper beard and over his mouth that had changed from a grin back into a form that looked like the one of a pissed off but especially sad smiley, he glanced around once more, feeling how a thick lump was forming in his throat, growing along with his desperation.
No matter how much he wished for some solution to pop up in his head, for this place to change into something better just like the future he had longed for, he realized with every minute he spent within these walls that there was none.
Not outside here at least.
Here was nothing to built up on, nothing but dead fuckers and ruined buildings.
He hated to admit it, hated even more that this was the painful truth, but there was not only more for him back in Alexandria, but also more for her, for them both.
He had to go back.

“Oh no”, you huffed as you spotted the approaching four walkers between the trees, stumbling through the undergrowth you were making your way through along with Judith.
“I’ll help”, she said as soon as you grabbed your knife, keeping it tightly in your hands before you turned around and glanced right at her.
“Oh no, I know you can do this but there’s enough trouble going on right now. I won’t get you into any more danger”, you said, trying to work against her stubborn little head while the groans of the dead got louder, “Those aren’t that many, I can take care of them, just stay here.”
You saw her nodding for a moment, right before your glance stayed a little longer on her before you turned back around and stepped towards the growling walkers that were already stretching their rotting arms out for you.
With a huff you grasped the wooden handle of the knife tighter, stepping closer towards the first dead one as you kicked its weak legs back, snapping them by the knees into half and forcing it to stumble back into the ground, harmless enough for you to step over it and drive your knife into its skull.
Sighing heavily you marched towards the other three, while you heard an approaching engine in the distance that pushed itself into your head as you made your way closer to the walkers.
It were probably Alexandrians on their way to search for Negan, and while the thought of them finding him brought nausea over you again you forced yourself to concentrate on the threat right in front of you.
You were swinging in a deadly trance as you fought walker after walker, panting as you struggled a little with the last and tallest one until its body finally got limp and fell lifeless to the ground.
Just as you caught your breath again and shook the blood of the knife, ready to turn around to Judith your body flinched up in shock by the sound of a gunshot echoing through the air.
Gasping for air you turned around, already seeing what you had expected, Judith was gone, and so was her colt, the gun that had to be responsible for the shot.
“Fuck!”, you cursed loudly, filled with desperation and worry as you glanced around, trying to retrieve the source of the shot before you saw her standing on the blacktop of the road, a good bit away from your position in the woods, her body crouched, as if she was talking to someone or something on the ground.
“Goddamn it”, you cursed under your fastening breath, already imagining the worst as you rushed through the undergrowth, trying to stay upright and not to trip over every root and bush in your way.
You were only a few dozen meter away from reaching the blacktop as you finally saw a figure appearing beside her, tall and broad, right before this figure became a person whose appearance took your breath away once more.
“Negan”, you breathed out, still not fully believing your eyes as your footsteps fastened, almost entangling with the undergrowth as you rushed through it until you reached the wood’s edge with a harshly beating heart and relief that began to wash all over you.
You mumbled his name again the moment your eyes finally caught his, softening them as you watched a smile growing on his lips, pushing his dimples forward beneath the salt and pepper stubble.
“You’re okay”, you mumbled with another relieved sigh, rushing towards him, lost in your emotions until you could finally feel his arms wrapping around your body and pulling you close against his.
“Yeah..’cept for that this little lady shot me off the damn motorcycle”, you heard him mumble into your hair with a low chuckle, right before the adrenaline in your veins sunk a little and you began to combine what had just happened and look around you.
Not only Negan was here, clad into a new leather jacket instead of the prison suit, there was also a motorcycle almost laying beside the road, its frontwheel still spinning slightly from the sudden impact it had gone through by Negan’s fall after Judith’s shot.
“Jud-”, you called out, spinning in his arms around to her before he pulled you closer and made you look at him, calming you a little with his touch that felt soothing after the distress and nerve-racking emotions the day had put you through till now.
“She told me she’d shoot if she’d see me again here so…”, he mumbled with a chuckle, shrugging his shoulders slightly before you heard the voice of the girl sounding through the air again.
“I’ll give you a second…”
“But don’t go too far, okay? Can’t have you slipping away again…I just don’t want you hurt, Judith”, you said, giving her a caring but warning look in response to what had happened just minutes ago before she nodded, this time more genuinely, before grabbing her colt and walking a bit until plunging down onto the edge of the blacktop.
Breathing throughly through you forced your glance from Judith and instead closed your eyes as you hugged Negan back again, nuzzling your nose into his neck while you could feel more and more burden falling off your shoulders until his voice rumbled through to you.
“You’re not mad at my ass?”
“No…you just scared the shit out of me, you got no idea how many of them are out here searching for you”, you muttered back, sighing quietly as you huddled up to him ,”I’m just so glad you’re fine.”
For another moment he stayed quiet, just cradling you and allowing you to calm down until your mind was less of a mess again before he shifted uncomfortably.
“Sweetheart?”, he mumbled, pushing you with the tension in his voice to make you dive out of his neck’s curve and look into his eyes ,“I’m going back”
“What?”, it directly jumped out of your lips, eliciting confusion once more as you stared blankly at him.
In your euphoria you hadn’t even wasted a thought to what was coming next, if he was staying outside, what he had wanted to do for the both of you or if he had a new plan, but even though you could have imagined many answers, going back wasn’t one of the first ones you thought of.
“Cell and all…I’m going back to Alexandria”, he added, clearly and determined, leaving no space for doubt even though confusion was still keeping all of your facial expression hostage.
“I uhm…I thought I could change something”, he mumbled, sighing as he stared for a moment into the woods before his glance met yours again,”For us…get us that damn future we’ve been thinking’ ‘bout.”
A weak, even sad smile was growing on his lips, catapulting your thoughts to your talks about the wishes the cell wouldn’t let you fulfill.
”Now I know I…I know I can’t”, he mumbled, gulping thickly as his voice was filled with pain and defeat while a heavy breath rumbled through his his chest.
“Sanctuary’s gone…all of it…and-…fuck, there’s no damn other way out here for me to prove to them that I ain’t belong into that cell”, he said, trying to keep himself talking while you just looked at him, allowing him to get everything off his chest that needed to leave.
“And I won’t bring you out here into this shit world for sure. Not you…not anything that could ever be on the way”, he mumbled with another sad smile, caressing the side of your stomach before he sighed once more and clenched his jaw uneasily, “There’s no future out here…I gotta accept that.”
“In Alexandria, hell I know you’re safe, I know you got a doc when you need one, got shit to fill your stomach”, he chuckled softly as he rose his voice again, trying to lift both of your moods as a small grin slipped into the sad smile,”And I got some gossip at my little window, and that’s better than those fuckin’ dead asshats tryin’ to turn my ass into a snack.”
“Are you sure?”, was the first thing to slip out of your lips as you were glancing concerned at him, “I don’t want you to feel like you gotta go back just for me…I don’t want that.”
“It’s all fine, Sweetheart. Trust me, it’s fine”, he said the moment your voice hushed, leaving you no space to argue his decision. For another moment, you looked at him, watching his reaction, the glance that was filled with genuineness and muscles that were relaxed, as if he was at peace with his choice. 
“And who knows…maybe I get the chance to prove other shit”, he mumbled, tipping in to plant a small kiss on your lips before backing away and capturing your eyes once more, “I’m not givin’ up on our future, just gotta find a different way.”
Softly, you nodded, still trying to sort the mess in your head that slowly got less entangled by the relief that washed more and more through your veins.
“And at least I got a new leather jacket, knew you were always a sucker for that”, he added with another low chuckle, eliciting to let a soft laugh fall from your lips as well before another voice made you turn around.
“Are you ready? Can we go home?”, Judith asked, glancing at you out of a little distance before you gave her a smiling nod and stepped finally out of Negan’s embrace.
“Yeah, we can go home”, you said, seeing a small smile growing on her lips as well before she turned around and marched forward, the sheriff hat on her head swinging a little from side to side as it was still way too large before your eyes detached from her and found Negan again.
“Everything will work out just fuckin’ fine”, he mumbled, taking his first steps to follow Judith and grasping your hand in the process, engulfing it in his large palm and squeezing it softly, letting you hope that he was right, letting you hope that there was no aftermath to his escape, letting you hope for your future.

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